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The walk back to Angel’s in the post-dawn hours was cleansing. Perhaps a little too<br />
cleansing. As he watched the minor hustle and bustle of Sunnydale go about their<br />
daily lives, he felt entirely disconnected. There were secrets in this town, and<br />
Xander didn’t know who was keeping them. Who was living the real life? The<br />
soccer moms and teenaged Doublemeat Palace workers and white-shirted business<br />
men and street sweepers? Would it have been better to have remained ignorant of<br />
the Hellmouth dealings? Was this a world that he could exist in and not be found<br />
out?<br />
Was his secret any bigger than the soccer mom who was having an affair with her<br />
kid’s coach? Than the fast food flunky who never washed his hands? Than the<br />
embezzling business man or the drunk city worker?<br />
Who was it that participated in the death of a rapist last night? Certainly not Xander<br />
Harris. Not this boy. At the moment, Xander didn’t know which he wanted more.<br />
To fall back into his role as a seventeen year old boy, or to crawl back in bed with a<br />
century old vampire and loose his boyhood to the night, whatever the darkness may<br />
hold. Oddly, they both seemed equally appealing.<br />
Angel was asleep by the time Xander got home. Choosing not to wake him to find<br />
out how it went with Buffy, Xander simply took a shower, got dressed, gathered his<br />
books and left for school. He arrived just as the first bell rang.<br />
Thankfully, his first class was economics, which he did not share with Buffy or<br />
Willow. He also managed to avoid them for his second period history class by<br />
spending that time in the janitor’s closet with Cordelia.<br />
And Cordy was being particularly enthusiastic today. His body was still sizzling<br />
from his new encounter with Spike, and this girl’s touches were sparking some<br />
naughty desires that Xander was more than willing to explore.<br />
Naughty desires. It was fascinating to Xander that he completely separated these<br />
feelings that he was having for Cordy from the feelings he had toward Spike. With