Backfire - Spander Files

that he felt in his heart. Spike returned the kiss in kind, panting heavily as Xander
broke away. “Good?”
“Dangerous,” Spike warned, but there was no threat in his voice.
“You’re worth it.”
“Why?”
“Passion.” Xander surprised himself by knowing the answer. Spike gave him that
same questioning look. “I’ve never known anyone with as much passion as you
have. When you want something, you put every ounce of energy you have into
getting it. It burns in you, this passion.” Xander slipped his hands from Spike’s neck
to underneath his shoulders. “It makes me happy, too. ‘Cause part of your passion is
me. I don’t know when it happened, but I became part of you at some point. I’m in
you. More than just my blood. I’ll never be a part of anyone like I’m a part of you.
That’s why you’re worth the danger. You make me live.”
Spike wiggled his legs until they were outside of Xander’s. Then he wrapped them
around the boy’s waist, crossing his ankles to hold him close.
“How do you know me?” Spike’s voice was quiet and almost frightened.
“I didn’t know I did,” Xander answered, still a bit surprised. “I purposely hadn‘t
given it much thought. Until just now.” He looked at Spike curiously. “Will you
keep me alive? For a while longer?”
“Yes,” Spike said without hesitation.
“Why?”
“Faith. I admire your faith.”
“I’m not sure that I believe in God.”
“Not talking about God. Talking about Faith. You believe, Xander. In everything
around you. You believe that your friends will always win their fight against the