Backfire - Spander Files

Shrug
“I just don’t understand. You’ve become this part of my life. You’re inside me all
time, and I like you there. You’re comfortable. I can feel you, like you’re with me
and watching me as I live my life. I can’t shake you.
“And I’m not a fool. I know that you go out at night. I know you feed and kill. And
it bothers me on a moral level, really it does, but I somehow can’t bring myself to
make an attempt to stop you. Don’t look at me like that. I know I wouldn’t be able
to stop you, but Angel and Buffy could. They could find some way to restrain you, I
know they could. And yet, I haven’t told them where to find you. Why do you
suppose that is?”
“No idea, luv. But it’s appreciated.”
“Maybe I’m not doing it for you.”
“No?”
“I don’t know. I like coming here to you in this basement. Where Drusilla’s scent
still lingers. Where I don’t have to think about Angel coming in. Just you and me.
*`*`*`*`*`*`*`*`*
“Should have always been just you and me, Spike.”
“Then why the girlfriend? You really need a third sex-partner?”
“…Don’t know. Maybe just the fact that she’s a girl. With girl parts. I like girl
parts. And I really do like her. It’s different. I chose her. Haven’t been forced into
anything. I like the…control.”
“Yeah. That doesn’t surprise me."
*`*`*`*`*`*`*`*`*