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“Do you want me to?”<br />
“No.”<br />
“Then I won’t.”<br />
Xander turned around in Spike’s arms until they were face to face. He brought a<br />
hand up and traced a sharp cheekbone on a face that held very little expression.<br />
“I don’t believe you.”<br />
Spike smiled then. Broad and genuine. He leaned forward and kissed Xander firmly<br />
on the lips. The contact was short, and when he pulled away Xander found himself<br />
completely lost in the blue eyes that filled his frame of vision.<br />
Why the fates saw fit to turn this god-like creature into an evil fiend, Xander truly<br />
wanted to know. He decided that he would one day ask the powers-that-be that<br />
question, while at the same time thanking them for giving him this gift of raw<br />
emotion and power that he felt with the vampire. In the course of knowing Spike,<br />
Xander had gone through every feeling known to him, from purest hatred to purest<br />
love, and now, laying here in his vampire’s arms, Xander felt every one of those<br />
emotions flow through him again. He was confused and sated at the same time. It<br />
made his brain hurt, so he closed his eyes and concentrated on the burning itch<br />
inside of him, taking his thoughts away from Spike and giving them to<br />
Angel…Angelus…whoever.<br />
Xander rolled onto his back, holding onto Spike’s hand which now lay gently on his<br />
chest. He stared up at the white ceiling and let his mouth translate his thoughts.<br />
“I always thought that with Angel we were dealing with just a muted down version<br />
of the vampire he once was. I guess I never really understood about the soul, even<br />
when he tried to tell me. I just figured that he made a conscious choice not to do bad<br />
stuff.<br />
“But now I think I understand about evil. Evil is unstable. It’s action, not reaction.<br />
Evil is easy. I think that people in the real world have to work hard every day to