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eyebrows scrunched and Xander turned back away from the annoying yet familiar<br />
expression.<br />
Now Spike was looking at Xander, head tilted slightly. A look had glazed over the<br />
one open eye. Xander stared, trying to place the expression. He hadn’t seen it<br />
before, but thought perhaps there was a touch of desperation.<br />
“Oh, God. Spike. You were trying to let her win, weren’t you?” The expression<br />
didn’t change, but Spike started moving his thumb back and forth along Xander’s<br />
chin. “If you wanted to die, you could have just stayed out in the sunlight.” The<br />
thumb-stroking stopped. Xander got it. “But that would have been insulting to<br />
Drusilla.” Thumb moving again. “You had to go down fighting. For her.”<br />
Spike’s fingers slid up Xander’s throat to grasp just his chin. Then he was being<br />
pulled forward slowly and closer to Spike. The vampire closed the distance between<br />
them and Xander felt Spike’s lips on his own for the first time. It was faint and soft,<br />
and not even a kiss. They just touched for a few moments, then Spike pulled away,<br />
let go of Xander and rested his head back against the wall.<br />
A part of Xander died a little bit right then. He thought perhaps he could feel a hole<br />
in his swiss cheese brain close up. He leaned back and fell against the sarcophagus<br />
behind him, closing his eyes. All cylinders in his brain fired and he searched his<br />
fractured mind to figure out who was missing. Mini-Xander roll-call. Is everyone<br />
present and accounted for? One, two, three, four, five, six, seven…wait. Six? Hello?<br />
Where are you guilt? Where are you anger? Where are you shame?<br />
Oh, crap.<br />
11<br />
Giving and Taking