TRAPPED IN A MASONIC WORLD

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functioning normally, due to excessive alcohol I had at times pancreatitis. My liver has returned back to
its healthy self, as have my kidneys, so no more back pain, and my brain has recovered to its old self
again!
Though what‘s quite strange, is that it took about 18 months for my memory, concentration and brain to
start functioning properly again. [Though it must be said, that about seventy percent of what happened to
me over a twenty year period and whilst I was drinking so heavily, I have hardly any recollection as to
what I had been through, things I‘ve done, people I‘ve met, or places I‘d been too. Complete and utter
blackouts are very commonplace and a distinctive contribution and handicap to that of being an alcoholic,
but not one readily admitted for fear of doing so can leave you wide open to false allegations and other
forms of abuses, and I‘ve been set-up a few times, when in this condition]. In my early stages of recovery,
I would still think I was drunk or stoned and especially when first laying down to go to sleep at night, or on
waking up. Oddly it took what seemed to be around a year or more before comprehending, I obviously
wasn‘t drunk or stoned, but was indeed sober.
So there you have it, a bit about my dark side and my failings, with some more revelations still to come.
I suppose many a person may well think: ―Holdup! Who the hell does this bloke think he is, talk about
calling the kettle black, his just an ex-criminal, drunken drug addict, and much more worse than any of
those he is now trying to expose and condemn‖. And my answer is simply: This may have been the case,
and this is the reason I think its best I come clean to you. I understand I‘m wide open to criticism, so
there‘s no point painting a picture about myself that‘s not true, or even worse, trying to brush it under the
carpet hoping nobody might notice what‘s really under there. Though I really have changed as a person, I
truly am not the same man as the one who used to drink for England, Russia and Poland combined.
Okay so they say a leopard can‘t change its spots - well I‘m not a bloody leopard am I. I‘ve paid my
dues to society, and was more than willing to do the time for the crime whatever the case might have been,
unlike many of these shits who portray themselves as being ―great pillars‖ of society, who want both sides
of the coin, never holding their hands up, despite being caught red handed and banged to rights, - as these
are the types who can then call upon their fellow corrupt Freemason solicitors, barristers and judges from
their same Masonic Lodge or fraternity, to then represent them and help them get off scot free, or if all else
fails, then the most lenient of sentences passed. And unlike those here who I am attacking and exposing, I
am not being a hypocrite, I don‘t chirp from one song sheet whilst whistling from another, and I can assure
you one other thing for sure, I‘m certainly not worse than any of those I end up revealing and condemning
here in this book.
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4. The Deal
Apart from acting like a idiot at times, I was fairly on-the-ball and successful in various business
ventures and jobs that I done for a living, and as I‘ve already mentioned, throughout my wayward years, I
would pull myself together every now and again and especially so following a spell in one of Her
Majesty‘s abodes. I have served, including time on remand, in excess of four years inside prison and in
over ten different nicks throughout the country. I actually consider myself very lucky, due to the fact I was
facing between six to eight years on the £1,000,000 fraud charge alone. - When I was first arrested and in
relation to that charge, I was additionally accused of murder and armed robbery, as well as a number other
linked accusations and charges that carried life sentences if found guilty. I was guilty of the fraud charge
only and pleaded so, yet despite my guilty plea I was found ―not guilty‖, as it was deemed ―not in the
public interest‖, and the Crown Prosecution Service quoting ‗Nolle prosequi‘, Latin for;―to be unwilling to
pursue‖. Though the truth of the matter was, that the revelations and details of my case was deemed far
too politically sensitive and embarrassing for both the government and police for them to have wanted it to
have been heard in an open court, and it was for these reasons alone, as to why I was found ―not guilty‖ of
a crime I had pleaded ―guilty‖ to.
As I mentioned earlier, little did I realise it at the time, but the circumstances of my case was somehow
connected with several high profile IRA appeals and trials that were still in process, including Danny
McNamee‘s, alias the Hyde Park bomber, - which was talking place in the High Court in London for his
false conviction for that crime, - exactly whilst I was in the course of doing a deal with the police. In 1987