divine-mercy-in-my-soul

315 +Mother of God, Your soul was plunged into a sea of bitterness; look upon Your child
and teach her to suffer and to love while suffering. Fortify my soul that pain will not
break it. Mother of grace, teach me to live by [the power of] God.
316 Once, the Mother of God came to visit me. She was sad. Her eyes were cast down.
She made it clear that She wanted to say something, and yet, on the other hand, it
was as if She did not want to speak to me about it. When I understood this, I began to
beg the Mother of God to tell me and to look at me. Just then Mary looked at me with
a warm smile and said, You are going to experience certain sufferings because of an
illness and the doctors; you will also suffer much because of the image, but do not be
afraid of anything. The next day I fell ill and suffered a great deal, just as the Mother
of God had told me. But my soul was ready for the sufferings. Suffering is a constant
companion of my life.
317 O my God, my only hope, I have placed all my trust in You, and I know I shall not be
disappointed.
318 (136) I often feel God‟s presence after Holy Communion in a special and tangible way.
I know God is in my heart. And the fact that I feel Him in my heart does not interfere
with my duties. Even when I am dealing with very important matters which require
attention, I do not lose the presence of God in my soul, and I am closely united with
Him. With Him I go to work, with Him I go for recreation, with Him I suffer, with Him I
rejoice; I live in Him and He in me. I am never alone, because He is my constant
companion. He is present to me at every moment. Our intimacy is very close,
through a union of blood and of life.
319 August 9, 1934. Night adoration on Thursdays. 79 I made my hour of adoration from
eleven o‟clock till midnight. I offered it for the conversion of hardened sinners,
especially for those who have lost hope in God‟s mercy. I was reflecting on how much
God has suffered and on how great was the love He had shown for us, and on the fact
that we still do not believe that God loves us so much. O Jesus, who can understand
this? What suffering it is for our Savior! How can He convince us of His love if even
His death cannot convince us? I called upon the whole of heaven to join me in making
amends to the Lord for the ingratitude of certain souls.
320 Jesus made known to me how very pleasing to Him were prayers of atonement. He
said to me, The prayer of a humble and loving soul disarms the anger of My
Father and draws down an ocean of blessings. After the adoration, half way to my
cell, I was surrounded by a pack of huge black dogs who were jumping and howling
and trying to tear me to pieces. I realized that they were not dogs, but demons. One
of them spoke up in a rage, “Because you have snatched so many souls away from us
this night, we will tear you to pieces.” In answered, “If that is the will of the most
merciful god, tear me to pieces, for I have justly deserved it, because I am the most
miserable of all sinners, and God is every holy, just, and infinitely merciful.” To these
words all the demons answered as one, “Let us flee, for she is not alone; the Almighty
is with her!” And they vanished like dust, like the noise of the road, while I continued
on my way to my cell undisturbed, finishing my Te Deum and pondering the infinite
and unfathomable mercy of God.
(137) August 12, 1934.
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