divine-mercy-in-my-soul

I will hide myself among the sisters like a little violet among lilies. I want to blossom for
my Lord and Maker, to forget about myself, to empty myself totally for the sake of
immortal souls – this is my delight.
(104) + A few of my thoughts.
225 As regards Holy Confession, I shall choose what costs and humiliates me most.
Sometimes a trifle costs more than something greater. I will call to mind the Passion of
Jesus at each confession, to arouse my heart to contrition. Insofar as possible, with the
grace of God, I will always practice perfect contrition. I will devote more time to this
contrition. Before I approach the confessional, I shall first enter the open and most
merciful Heart of the Savior. When I leave the confessional, I shall rouse in my soul great
gratitude to the Holy Trinity for this wonderful and inconceivable miracle of mercy that is
wrought in my soul. And the more miserable my soul is, the more I feel the ocean of
God‟s mercy engulfing me and giving me strength and great power.
226 The rules that I most often fail to obey: sometimes I break silence; disobedience to the
signal of the bell; sometimes I meddle in other people‟s affairs. I will do my very best to
improve.
I will avoid sisters who grumble, and if they cannot be avoided, I will at least keep silent
before them, thus letting them know how sorry I am to hear such things.
I must take no heed of the opinion of others, but obey the evidence of my own conscience
and take God to be the witness of all my actions. I must do everything and act in all
matters now as I would like to do and act at the hour of my death. For this reason, in
every action I must be mindful of God.
Avoid presumed permissions, 67 I must report [even] small things to my superiors, and do
so in as much detail as is possible. I must be faithful in my spiritual exercises; I must not
easily ask to be dispensed from them. I must keep silence outside the time of recreation,
and avoid jokes and witty words that make others laugh and break silence. I must have
great appreciation (105) for even the most minute rules. I must not let myself become
absorbed in the whirl of work, [but] take a break to look up to heaven. Speak little with
people, but a good deal with God. Avoid familiarity. I must pay little attention as to who is
for me and who is against me. I must not tell others about those things I have had to put
up with. I must avoid speaking out loud to others during work. I must maintain peace and
equanimity during times of suffering. In difficult moments, I must take refuge in the
wounds of Jesus; I must seek consolation, comfort, light and affirmation in the wounds of
Jesus.
227 +In the midst of trials I will try to see the loving hand of God. Nothing is as constant as
suffering – it always faithfully keeps the soul company. O Jesus, I will let no one surpass
me in loving You!
+ O Jesus, hidden in the Blessed Sacrament,
228 You see that in pronouncing my perpetual vows I am leaving the novitiate 68 today. Jesus,
You know how weak and little I am, and so from today on, I am entering Your novitiate in
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