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want to show the power of My mercy. I understood that this Mother had merely wanted
to subject me to a [salutary] humiliation.
134 (63) + O my Jesus, You have tested me so many times in this short life of mine! I have
come to understand so many things, and even such that now amaze me. Oh, how good it
is to abandon oneself totally to God and to give Him full freedom to act in one‟s soul!
135 During the third probation, the Lord gave me to understand that I should offer myself to
him so that He could do with me as He pleased. I was to remain standing before Him as
a victim offering. At first, I was quite frightened, as I felt myself to be so utterly miserable
and knew very well that this was the case. I answered the Lord once again, “I am misery
itself; how can I be a hostage [for others]?” You do not understand this today.
Tomorrow, during your adoration, I will make it known to you. My heart trembled, as
did my soul, so deeply did these words sink into my soul. The word of God is living.
When I came to the adoration, I felt within my soul that I had entered the Temple of the
living God, whose majesty is great and incomprehensible. And he made known to me
what even the purest spirits are in His sight. Although I saw nothing externally, God‟s
presence pervaded me. At that very moment, my intellect was strangely illumined. A
vision passed before the eyes of my soul; it was like the vision Jesus had in the Garden of
Olives. First, the physical sufferings and all the circumstances that would increase them;
[then] the full scope of the spiritual sufferings and those that no one would know about.
Everything entered into the vision: false suspicions, loss of good name. I‟ve summarized
it here, but this knowledge was already so clear that what I went through later on was in
no way different from what I had known at that moment. My name is to be: “sacrifice.”
When the vision ended, a cold sw3eat bathed my forehead. Jesus made it known to me
that, even if I did not give my consent to this, I could still be saved; and He would not
lessen His graces, but would still continue to have the same intimate relationship with me,
so that even if I did not consent to make this sacrifice, God‟s generosity would not lessen
thereby.
136 And the Lord gave me to know that the whole mystery depended on me, on my free
consent to the sacrifice given with full use of my faculties. In this free and conscious act
lies the whole power and value before His Majesty. Even if none of these things for which
I offered myself would ever happen to me, before the Lord everything was as though it
had already been (64) consummated.
At that moment, I realized I was entering into communion with the incomprehensible
Majesty. I felt that God was waiting for my word, for my consent. Then my spirit
immersed itself in the Lord, and I said, “Do with me as You please. I subject myself to
Your will. As of today, Your holy will shall be my nourishment, and I will be faithful to Your
commands with the help of Your grace. Do with me as You please. I beg You, O Lord,
be with me at every moment of my life.”
137 Suddenly, when I had consented to the sacrifice with all my heart and all my will, God‟s
presence pervaded me. My soul became immersed in God and was inundated with such
happiness that I cannot put in writing even the smallest part of it. I felt that His Majesty
was enveloping me. I was extraordinarily fused with God. I saw that God was well
pleased with me and, reciprocally, my spirit drowned itself in Him. Aware of this union
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