divine-mercy-in-my-soul

people could only know this! O my God, if I were thereby able to attain one more
degree, I would gladly suffer all the torments of the martyrs put together. (68)
Truly, all those torments seem as nothing to me compared with the glory that is
awaiting us for all eternity. O Lord, immerse my soul in the ocean of Your divinity
and grant me the grace of knowing You; for the better I know You, the more I
desire You, and the more my love for You grows. I feel in my soul an
unfathomable abyss which only god can fill. I lose myself in Him as a drop does in
the ocean. The Lord has inclined himself to my misery like a ray of the sun upon a
barren and rocky desert. And yet, under the influence of His rays, my soul has
become covered with verdure, flowers, and fruit, and has become a beautiful
garden for His repose.
606 My Jesus, despite Your graces, I see and feel all my misery. I begin my day with
battle and end it with battle. As soon as I conquer one obstacle, ten more appear
(69) to take its place. But I am not worried, because I know that this is the time of
struggle, not peace. When the burden of the battle becomes too much for me, I
throw myself like a child into the arms of the heavenly Father and trust I will not
perish. O my Jesus, how prone I am to evil, and this forces me to be constantly
vigilant. But I do not lose heart. I trust God‟s grace, which abounds in the worst
misery.
607 In the midst of the worst difficulties and adversities, I do not lose inner peace or
exterior balance, and this discourages my adversaries. Patience in adversity gives
power to the soul.
608 February 2, [1936]. In the morning, when the bell awoke me, I was so overcome
by drowsiness which I could not shake off that I jumped into cold water, and after
two minutes the sleepiness left me. When I came to meditation (70) a host of
absurd thoughts swarmed into my head, so much so that I had to struggle
throughout the whole meditation. It was the same during prayer time, but when
Mass began, a strange silence and joy filled my heart. Just then, I saw Our Lady
with the Infant Jesus, and the Holy Old Man [St. Joseph] standing behind them.
The most holy Mother said to me, Take My Dearest Treasure, and She handed me
the Infant Jesus. When I took the Infant Jesus in my arms, the Mother of God and
Saint Joseph disappeared. I was left alone with the Infant Jesus.
609 I said to Him, “I know that You are my Lord and Creator even though You are so
tiny.” Jesus stretched His little arms out to me and looked at me with a smile. My
spirit was filled with incomparable joy. Then, suddenly, Jesus disappeared, and it
was time for Holy Communion. I went with the other sisters to the Holy Table, my
soul deeply moved. After Holy Communion, (71) I heard these words in my soul: I
am in your heart, I whom you had in your arms. I then pleaded with Jesus for a
certain soul [Father Sopocko], asking the Lord to grant him the grace to fight, and
to take this trial from him. As you ask, so shall it be, but his merit will not be
lessened. Joy reigned in my soul that God is so good and merciful; God grants
everything that we ask of Him with trust.
610 After each conversation with the Lord, my soul is extraordinarily strengthened, and
a profound tranquility prevails therein and gives me such courage that I do not fear
anything in the world, but fear only lest I make Jesus sad.
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