divine-mercy-in-my-soul

If the things you are telling me really come from God, prepare your soul for great
suffering. You will encounter disapproval and persecution. They will look upon you as a
hysteric and an eccentric, but the Lord will lavish His graces upon you. True works of
God always meet opposition and are marked by suffering. If God wants to accomplish
something, sooner or later He will do so in spite of the difficulties. Your part, in the
meantime, is to arm yourself with great patience.
271 When the Rev. Dr. Sopocko went to the Holy Land, Father Dabrowski, S.J., was the
community‟s confessor. During one confession he asked me if I was aware of the high
degree of [spiritual] life that was present in my soul. I answered that I was aware of it and
knew what was going on within me. To this the Father replied, “You must not destroy
what is going on in your soul, Sister, nor must you change anything on your own. It is not
in every soul that the beautiful gift of a higher interior life is manifest as it is in your case,
Sister, for it is manifest in an immense degree. Be careful not to waste these great
graces of God; a great…..” [Here the thought breaks off.]
272 But previously, this priest had put me through many trials. When I told him that the Lord
wanted these things of me [that is, the painting of the image, the establishing of a feast of
the Divine Mercy, and the founding of a new community], he laughed at me and told me
to come to confession at eight in the evening. When I came at eight, a brother was
already locking the church. When I told him that Father had ordered me to come at that
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and asked him to let Father know I was there, the good brother went to let him know.
Father told him to tell me that priests do not hear confessions at that time of day. I
returned home empty-handed and did not go to confession to him again, but made a
whole hour‟s adoration and took on certain mortifications for him, that he might obtain
light from god in order to know souls. But when Father Sopocko left, and he substituted
for him, I was forced to go to confession to him. Yet, while previously he had been
unwilling to acknowledge these inner inspirations, he now put me under obligation to be
faithful to them. God lets such things happen sometimes, but may He be glorified in
everything. Still, it requires much grace not to falter.
Annual Retreat. January 10, 1934.
273 My Jesus, again the moment approaches when I will be alone with You. Jesus, I ask You
with all my heart, let me know what there is in me that displeases You and also let me
know what I should do to become more pleasing to You. Do not refuse me this favor and
be with me. I know that without You, Lord, all my efforts will not amount to much. Oh,
how I rejoice at Your greatness, O Lord! The more I come to know You, the more
ardently I yearn for You and sigh after You!
274 Jesus gave me the grace of knowing myself. In this divine light I see my principal fault;
it is pride which takes the form of my closing up within myself and of a lack of simplicity
in my relations with Mother Superior [Irene].
The second light concerns speaking. I sometimes talk too much. A thing could be settled
in one or two words, and as for me, I take too much time about it. But Jesus wants me to
use that time to say some short indulgenced prayers for the souls in purgatory. And the
Lord says that every word will be weighed on the day of judgment.
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