divine-mercy-in-my-soul

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J.M.J.
Cracow, August 10, 1937
Notebook Four
1234 All for You, Jesus. I desire to adore Your mercy with every beat of my heart and, to the
extent that I am able, to encourage souls to trust in that mercy, as You Yourself have
commanded me, O Lord.
1235 In my heart, in my soul, there is a dark night. My spirit has come up against an
impenetrable wall that hides God from me. But this darkness is not of my doing. Strange
indeed is this torture of which I fear to write in full. But even in this state, I am trying to be
faithful to You. O my Jesus. Always and in all things, my heart beats for You alone.
1236 (4) August 10, 1937. I came back today from Rabka to Cracow. I feel very ill. Only
Jesus knows how much I am suffering. During these days, I have very much resembled
Jesus Crucified. I have armed myself with patience in order to explain to each sister why
I was not able to stay there: that is, because my health had become worse, even though I
knew very well that certain sisters would inquire, not out of sympathy for my sufferings,
but in order to add to them.
1237 O Jesus, what darkness is enveloping me and what nothingness is penetrating me. But,
my Jesus, do not leave me alone; grant me the grace of faithfulness. Although I cannot
penetrate the mystery of God‟s visitation, it is in my power to say: Your will be done.
1238 August 12. On passing through Cracow, Rev. Father Sopocko paid me a short visit
today. I had wanted to see him, and god fulfilled my desire. (5) This priest is a great
soul, entirely filled with God. My joy was very great, and I thanked God for this great
grace, because it was for the greater glory of God that I wanted to see him.
1239 O living Host, O hidden Jesus. You see the condition of my soul. Of myself, I am unable
to utter Your Holy Name. I cannot bring forth from my hart the fire of love but, kneeling at
Your feet, I cast upon the Tabernacle the gaze of my soul, a gaze of faithfulness. As for
You, You are ever the same, while within my soul a change takes place. I trust that the
time will come when You will unveil Your countenance, and Your child will again see
Yo9ur sweet face. I am astonished, Jesus, that You can hide Yourself from me for so
long and that You can restrain the enormous love You have for me. In the dwelling of my
heart, I am listening and waiting for Your coming, O only Treasure of my heart!
1240 (6) The Lord Jesus greatly protects His representatives on earth. How closely He is
united with them; and He orders me to give priority to their opinion over His. I have come
to know the great intimacy which exists between Jesus and the priest. Jesus defends
whatever the priest says, and often complies with his wishes, and sometimes makes His
own relationship with a soul depending on the priest‟s advice. O Jesus, through a special
grace, I have come to know very clearly to what extent You have shared your power and
mystery with them, more so than with the Angels. I rejoice in this, for it is all for my good.
1241 + O my Jesus, when someone is unkind and unpleasant toward us, it is difficult enough to
bear this kind of suffering. But this is very little in comparison to a suffering which I
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