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meditation on the Passion of the Lord Jesus and for a certain humiliation. But I was a
little dissatisfied at not receiving permission for everything I had asked. When we
returned home, I dropped into the chapel for a moment, and then I heard this voice in
my soul: There is more merit to one hour of meditation on My sorrowful Passion
than there is to a whole year of flagellation that draws blood; the contemplation
of My painful wounds is of great profit to you, and it brings Me great joy. I am
surprised that you still have not completely renounced your self-will, but I
rejoice exceedingly that this change will be accomplished during the retreat.
370 That same day, when I was in church waiting for confession, I saw the same rays
issuing from the monstrance and spreading throughout the church. This lasted all
through the service. After the Benediction, [the rays shone out] to both sides and
returned again to the monstrance. Their appearance was bright and transparent like
crystal. I asked Jesus that He deign to light the fire of His love in all souls that were
cold. Beneath these rays a heart will grow warm even if it were like a block of ice;
even if it were hard as a rock, it will crumble into dust.
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(156) J.M.J. Vilnius, February 4,
1935
Eight-day retreat.
371 Jesus, King of Mercy, again the time has come when I am alone with You. Therefore I
beg You, by all the love with which Your Heart burns, to destroy completely within me
my self-love and, on the other hand, to enkindle in my heart the fire of Your purest
love.
372 In the evening, after the conference, I heard these words” I am with you. During
this retreat, I will strengthen you in peace and in courage so that your strength
will not fail in carrying out My designs. Therefore, you will cancel out your will
absolutely in this retreat and, instead, My complete will shall be accomplished
in you. Know that it will cost you much, so write these words on a clean sheet
of paper: “From today on, my own will does not exist,” and the cross out the
page. And on the other side write these words: “From today on, I do the will of
God everywhere, always, and in everything.” Be afraid of nothing; love will give
you strength and make the realization of this easy.
373 In the fundamental meditation about the goal; that is, of choosing love: the soul must
love; it has need of living. The soul must divert the stream of its love, but not into the
mud or into a vacuum, but into God. How I rejoice when I reflect on this, for I feel
clearly that He Himself is in my heart. Just Jesus alone! I love creatures insofar as
they help me to become united with God. I love all people because I see the image of
God in them.
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