Notes from the Dream (circa 1982-1986) - Stephen H. Wolinsky Ph. D.

enabling me to feel nothing at all but deadness,a sullen grey-ness.But nobody in my psychology world talked ofthis underlying existential-existence,(ism) pain.Rather they all seemed to be interested in theirnew career of helping others out of their pain.I found myself hiding my pain even morebecause somehow it was implied that it was notsupposed to be discussed.Finally, like a dam breaking—I broke.The discrepancy between my outer imageand my inner pain had grown so far and I wasface to face with the inner emptiness, and wasbrought to my knees in the office of a psychotherapist.26