Notes from the Dream (circa 1982-1986) - Stephen H. Wolinsky Ph. D.

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The dreamWithinTheDreamVI“Riders of the stormRiders of the stormInto this house we’re bornInto this world we’re thrownLike a dog without a boneAn actor all aloneRiders of the storm”Jim Morrison the DoorsTonight, once again, I reviewed my story.I was about to fall asleepand still there was pain and frustration.This time it was not psychological pain, BUT anew and different kind of painThe existential pain……calledWho am I returned.The world as I knew it was separate over there,viewed from inside a body over here.33
I felt like I was in a place over here, lookingout of a body,at a world out there,A world that I had somehow landedin or was parachuted in.A world that now I had to deal with and survivein.The fact remained that even after years andyears I was still here—separate from everything else over there.No meditation, no breathe exercise. and nopsycho-spiritualsystems of awareness were able nor capable ofdissolving this separation and hence theelimination of whichseemed to be me with all the accompanyingemotions of fear, anger, sadness and even love.As I reviewed my story of attendingworkshops,taking on new belief systems.It seemed that no matter how I saw it I wasalways doing, managing, watching, and beingmindful of something related to my thoughts,feelings, emotions, ormemories or others’ thoughts, feelings,emotions etc.34
Page 2 and 3: NotesFromThe DreamCirca 1982-1986Or
Page 4 and 5: DedicationTo NityanandaTo Sri Nisar
Page 6 and 7: “We are such stuff that dreams ar
Page 8: A Historical StoryAbout the TextIn
Page 11 and 12: as well as the extreme difficulty i
Page 13 and 14: The Dream YogaPart IFrom the Six Yo
Page 15 and 16: I felt like what Martin Heidegger h
Page 17 and 18: I had spent my life-time trying to
Page 19 and 20: An “I” which believed wholehear
Page 21 and 22: Deep downI could not believe in the
Page 23 and 24: accepted, and be loved.The problem
Page 25 and 26: The dreamWithinTheDreamIIIThey are
Page 27 and 28: enabling me to feel nothing at all
Page 29 and 30: say what I was feeling without inte
Page 31 and 32: The dreamWithinTheDreamVJacque Derr
Page 33: self-actualization contained within
Page 37 and 38: The dreamWithinTheDreamVII“Every
Page 39 and 40: uised images that had been created,
Page 41 and 42: Lying there facing what I perceived
Page 43 and 44: of time and motion. I truly could n
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Page 49 and 50: I became aware of the “emptiness
Page 51 and 52: The dreamWithinTheDreamXBuddhism: A
Page 53 and 54: knew exactly what it was supposed t
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Page 59 and 60: Yet, it was clear that everything w
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Page 63 and 64: Unexpectedly in the distance there
Page 65 and 66: In one Quantum-bubble-realm which a
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Page 74 and 75: A bubble called what will the futur
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Page 78 and 79: A thought arose “Where is your bo
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I spent what seemed like years in t
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My story was that Spiritual Paths e
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As the Not-I-I state looked “back
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“Consciousness is emptinessEmptin
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(whatever THAT was).In this way wit
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The dreamWithinTheDreamXIXTHE HEART
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Next:appreciate that “your heart
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The second chakra is about four fin
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You might even hear a clap of light
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were like rays of the sun getting m
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And, that each bubble universe I en
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She continued, “Feel your body ag
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Meditate: Visualize the elements (a
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The dreamWithinTheDreamXXIIIThe Voi
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Consciousness is the basic substanc
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He continued reading and then speak
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meditation bubble-realm. Remaining
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ubble-realms that arose and subside
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etween state the Buddhists called t
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Then:The explicate perceivable worl
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more aware of.Soon I was drawn into
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the ocean, like closing the eyelids
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space in an attempt to get to their
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The dreamWithinTheDreamXXVIThe I am
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space, mass, and time of the explic
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and associations and our feeling of
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I began to wonder, what am I missin
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The dreamWithinTheDreamXXVIII“Eve
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The dreamWithinTheDreamXXIXDristi S
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which appeared gave the illusion of
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Awareness as the lens or veil can b
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Through the lens of awareness the e
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The dreamWithinTheDreamXXI“There
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Surround the cremated body with “
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this Bohm called the explicate orde
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The “perceived” concept called
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The Eight Negations of NagarjunaThe
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The Emptiness Bubble:The emptiness
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It was a “light” that lie betwe
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“Everything has Buddha nature.”
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nucleus then there was between the
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Waking DreamsIIIShiva Sutras: “Th
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Waking DreamsIVThe Vijnana Bhairava
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Waking DreamsVThe Shiva SutrasConte
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Once again the “I” label vanish
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There is no witness and there is no
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Waking DreamsVIIIWithout eyesWithou
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Emptiness means withoutNirvana is w
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the voidness of voidthe nonexistent
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This accounts for the germination o
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Waking DreamsXThe “I” label dis
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(nature), which too was nonexistent
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The “I” was an illusion!Even if
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What’s left is not even the aware
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Waking DreamsXIIThe Not-I-I state a
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Waking DreamsXIIIThe enfolding and
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Waking DreamsXIV“Nothing is.” N
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See the dream as consciousnessSee t
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The perceiver or knower of the void
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