my best life 07.10.17.1204P

Three months later my business began to struggle and all
the emotionally based reasons to move to California
began to sour. My business suffered one set-back after
another and without the financial capital to weather the
small storms our lifestyle was changing quickly. The
money was flying out the window faster than I could make
those critical business connections to grow the company
in this new environment.
I began to realize that I had bitten off more than I could
possibly chew.
As the final months played out, I made poor choices out
of panic, trying almost anything to keep my head above
water. I resorted to creative deal making for the sake of
just getting some cash flow coming in.
At one point, I would offer my services for a third of my
customary rate and in doing so, two things happened.
First, not all the bills were getting paid. Second, my
customer’s expectations remained high, but based on
time/effort and quality I became resentful working three
times as hard for the money. I felt as if was being taken
advantage of, not waking up to the fact that I had brought
this upon myself by lowering my fees and not my
standards. I thought if I could hang on long enough, the
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