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last moments when he finally laid still and motionless as<br />
if someone had grabbed his soul and a <strong>life</strong>time of pain and<br />
anger remained carved in his face.<br />
His cause of death was gastrointestinal bleeding from<br />
years of alcohol abuse.<br />
He died on January 6, 2011. He was 83.<br />
When I learned about <strong>my</strong> biological father’s suicide and<br />
<strong>my</strong> biological mother’s unsuccessful attempt at suicide, it<br />
took me back to the night of the storm in Ohio.<br />
I first thought about the spiritual experience I had after I<br />
dropped the knife. My thoughts, at the time, were that <strong>my</strong><br />
adoptive mother, Dolores, was with me in spirit after<br />
dying the year before.<br />
But then, I began to wonder if the presence I felt may have<br />
been <strong>my</strong> biological father, James. Had he regretted taking<br />
his own <strong>life</strong> and was somehow reaching out to stop me<br />
from taking mine?<br />
I may never know the answer to that question.<br />
But, I do know this….<br />
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