RELATIONS OF DOMINANCE AND EQUALITY IN D. H. LAWRENCE

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departure. She had the ash of disillusion gritting
under her teeth. Would the next move turn out the
same? Always the shining doorway ahead;, and then,
upon approach, always the shining doorway was a gate
into another ugly yard, dirty and active and dead.
Always the crest of the hill gleaming ahead under
heaven: and then from the top of the hill only
another sordid valley full of amorphous, squalid
quality (p.436 - My underlining).
The good side of Ursula's realization is that she seems to be
more mature because it is as if now she were able to discern that
there is light and darkness and that the world of darkness is
more vivid because people (as the professors for example) disguise
themselves as 'light' but in fact they represent 'darkness'
(corruption).
This disguise is what attracts people like Ursula
and makes them see doors instead of gates.
It seems to me that
what weakens Ursula's awareness of the 'real' world is that she
is an escapist.
Instead of using her realization as a way of
fighting against this world and winning for her own sake, she
flees from it.
It seems that she loses her strength and thus
she turns her mind to other things.
This is what happens after she discovers the falsity of the
university's values.
Ursula brings Skrebensky back to her mind
as a way to compensate for her disillusionment.
She seems to
forget that the man has nothing to add to her quest.
He would
rather lead her to another 'ugly yard1. So it happens. Ursula
and Skrebensky restart their affair.
Her committment to the
university is left aside because of the man.
Hence she fails
her examination.
She does not care because she has Skrebensky
with her.
Despite the fact that they have been separate for a long
time Skrebensky is still the same man with his brick-like
quality. He has not changed. He seems, instead, to have become
more and more a random assortment parts: his mind seems to be