Anna Karenina - LimpidSoft

PART TWO CHAPTER 21
and deceiving; and in lying, deceiving, feigning, and continually thinking of others,
when the passion that united them was so intense that they were both oblivious of
everything else but their love.
He vividly recalled all the constantly recurring instances of inevitable necessity
for lying and deceit, which were so against his natural bent. He recalled particularly
vividly the shame he had more than once detected in her at this necessity for lying
and deceit. And he experienced the strange feeling that had sometimes come upon
him since his secret love for Anna. This was a feeling of loathing for something–
whether for Alexey Alexandrovitch, or for himself, or for the whole world, he could
not have said. But he always drove away this strange feeling. Now, too, he shook it
off and continued the thread of his thoughts.
“Yes, she was unhappy before, but proud and at peace; and now she cannot be at
peace and feel secure in her dignity, though she does not show it. Yes, we must put
an end to it,” he decided.
And for the first time the idea clearly presented itself that it was essential to put
an end to this false position, and the sooner the better. “Throw up everything, she
and I, and hide ourselves somewhere alone with our love,” he said to himself.
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