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my mom to be proud of me. I knew she would
enjoy bragging to her friends that I was a
stockbroker in Beverly Hills. Eight years later,
on September 12 th , 2001, the day after 9/11, I
lost everything. I lost all of my savings and my
clients. But the worst thing was that I lost hope
and all motivation.
I had never liked being a broker. Whenever I
heard someone say, “I love what I do,” I wanted
to strangle that person. I hated my work. I was
the worst employee. But, I was too afraid to
make any changes. I was too comfortable with
what I knew, and I didn’t like the uncertainty of
doing anything unfamiliar.
I was at the end of my rope with the only career
I’d ever known; I didn’t know what to do or
where to turn. I felt like a miserable failure,
and I needed to make another huge decision to
change my life.
Listening to my Heart…Finally
This time, I thought long and hard about what
I wanted, not what other people wanted for me
or wanted me to be. Unfortunately, up until
this point I had spent my life trying to please
everyone else. I had no idea of what I liked or
wanted to do.
One thing was certain: living in Los Angeles
was expensive. I could not keep up the life style
I had enjoyed before; I was broke. I wanted to
move back to Las Vegas, but I was hesitant.
Moving back to Las Vegas would mean that
I had failed. I didn’t think I would be able to
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