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felt I’m indecent. But, at one time, I thought, when I’m normal again, notaddicted to drug, I will automatically change. Change. I won’t be a crueland aggressive person. I will change”)(Male, 32yrs, Lower secondary education, DU)“I always wondering what would happen next. Tomorrow what’s going tohappen. Will I, will I wake up tomorrow? This kind of things, you know.Today healthy. When I see somebody really sick, I’ll be wondering will Ibe like him tomorrow or next week or next month. This kind of things Iam thinking”(Male, 40yrs, Upper secondary education, DU)Major concerns for the futureDifferent concerns for the future have been explored. These concerns depend on one’sown marital status such as the future of their children, some fearing death and some arepessimistic as to what the future holds for them. Some live one day at a time andwouldn’t dare think of the future. Some hope to get a job to finance their medicalexpenses. Others hope for a cure for HIV and AIDS. Other concerns are on a macrolevel such as the concern for governmental policies affecting the lives of people livingwith HIV and AIDS.“I was worried also at the same time what will happen to my children.Whom shall they turn to? All kind of things because my brothers havetheir own families. They won’t take my family”(Female, 54yrs, Lower secondary education, SW)“I look at the future as very bright for people living with HIV and AIDSnow. I mean, there’s so much of medication. There’s so much ofinformation the government is giving. But it didn’t keep its promise ofgiving all free lah. But at least we have various supports when I comparedto other countries like Indonesia, Singapore, Thailand, Philippines. We’vegot better various supports for medication and things like this. So, it’sbetter for us. Most of the people who are living with HIV and AIDS, asyou can see, most of us are doing volunteer work. We don’t have a fixedsalary, fixed income and we are okay. This is the first line for some of uswho are on medication. It’s what the government is giving us. What willhappen when they go to second line regime? Can the government stillsupport? You know, we still have to look into these issues”(Male, 50yrs, Upper secondary education)“I don’t know what the future holds for me. I am still searching what Iwant to do, you know. Peace of mind, you know and everything turns outsmoothly. I think that’ll be enough”(Male, 44yrs, Upper secondary education, DU)“There is no guarantee. I don’t know how to plan for my future because Iam not sure when I go smoke back or I will not smoke back. Even thoughif I will not smoke back, I will die because of HIV. It’s very hard to planfor a person like me”(Male, 49yrs, University education, DU)64