Small Riga Ghetto
Small Riga Ghetto
Small Riga Ghetto
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services were being held in every corner of the ship, and everywhere people lit<br />
small candles. All at once it was quiet and peaceful everywhere.<br />
"Kol nidrei we'esorei..." (All vows, oaths, bonds...)<br />
Everyone was weeping, including the women on the top deck. I did not go<br />
to prayers. I lay down on the steel floor, putting my prisoner's coat under me<br />
and using as a pillow my only piece of baggage, a loaf of bread and my bowl.<br />
Thus I lay sleepless for 24 hours until the Neile, or final prayer on the Day of<br />
Atonement. I didn't want to speak to anyone and I didn't do so. During the<br />
long, lonely hours I drew the balance sheet of my life (cheschboin hanefesch).<br />
"Jaale tachnuneinu meerew, wjowoj schawoscheinu mibojker!" (O let our<br />
prayer ascend from eventime, and may our cry come in to Thee from dawn!) I<br />
still saw before me Cantor Joffe from the past years in the ghetto, wearing his<br />
coat and Tallit. He had not only sung this prayer but also wept together with<br />
all of us. Today we needed schawoscheinu (help) more than ever, but we had<br />
given up all hope of its arrival. It was already Neile. People wept, people cried<br />
out: perhaps there was help for us after all? But no t'kia (Shofar signal at the<br />
end) was there. "Bschono hazios be'erez Isroel" (This year in the land of Israel).<br />
We could no longer wait till next year, we had to be freed this year<br />
(bschono hazois)!<br />
That night we dropped anchor off Liepāja. It turned out that several evacuation<br />
ships had been attacked by the Russians. Later, people said that two had<br />
been sunk, but we didn't know whether this was true. In any case, we were<br />
lucky. We sailed on, and we landed in Danzig on the third day. We left the<br />
ship and spent the whole day in the harbor. That evening we were loaded onto<br />
old fishing cutters; since there was not enough room for all of us, some of the<br />
women were put onto completely open boats. Thus our newly created flotilla<br />
sailed toward Stutthof. This trip, which would have taken ten to fifteen hours<br />
in normal times, lasted four days. Some of the time we were sailing on the<br />
open sea, and some of the time through various locks. The chains connecting<br />
us to the tugboat kept breaking and it took hours to repair them. No food of<br />
any kind, and above all no drinking water, had been provided for us. At night<br />
there was still a light frost. The poor women sat on their benches starving and<br />
shivering from the cold, and it was no wonder that some of them died of these<br />
hardships.<br />
As for me, I was lucky, for I was on the steam-driven tugboat that was carrying<br />
all of the provisions. Of course we had enough to eat, only there was no<br />
bread.<br />
At last we saw a large sign: Stutthof!