2011 - Talk Birth

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Daddy and his kids!
We’ve just had a family-wide cold and she got it too (she escaped the one that caused laryngitis for me two
weeks ago, but this one she got before me, which meant my antibodies weren’t able to save her from this
one). My grandma is coming to visit from CA this week and I hope she will be suitably enraptured with her
first little great-granddaughter!
This blog has taken on a more personal tone during my pregnancy experience and continues to do so.
Eventually, I will get back to writing more educational or advocacy-oriented posts. Right now, I just feel
more like writing about my own personal experiences.
There has been a ”baby boom” of April babies amongst my friends recently and as I read their birth stories,
I realize that I’ve yet to share the full version of Alaina’s birth story. I have it hand written in my journal
and think I will transcribe it ”sometime soon.” Attending Pam England’s presentation about the gates of
birth story sharing also heightened my desire to write it up in full. Of course, every day I have at least 10
things I’d like to do that I don’t make it to that day. I was just talking about this to my husband, saying
that really, I actually like this about myself. While I feel some kind of pressure somewhere to be ”more Zen”
and to ”chill out”/relax, I like my own intensity. I run fast and high and bright. It’s okay. That’s how I am.
As I’ve noted before, if chilling out means cooling my enthusiasm or putting out my fire, then, no thanks! I
don’t want it after all. I’d rather have the slightly manic edge :)
I like waking up in the morning with my head boiling with possibilities and being full of exciting ideas.
Of course, perhaps I could be calm and relaxed and full of ideas, but if it is a trade, I’ll take the ideas! To
be totally honest, sometimes I feel like people who suggest relaxing are secretly trying to ”dim my shine.” So
there! ;-P
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