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Back in the ICU<br />
Wednesday, April 18, 2012<br />
Dad is back in the ICU. His situation is very serious.<br />
CT scan results showed that the left lung is better than the right, but the left bronchial<br />
branch is completely closed off (presumably tumor pressing it shut). The right bronchial<br />
branch is fully open, but the right lung is very compromised <strong>with</strong> pneumonia. There is<br />
some pleural effusion.<br />
One of the nurses and one of the doctors, on different occasions, said that the outlook<br />
was very bad.<br />
Other than the Dilaudid causing him to be a bit loopy, he is very cogent when his O2<br />
saturation is good. When it isn't good, he is very out of it, eyes rolling back, etc. His O2<br />
saturation ranges from 70% to 100%. He is on a BPAP mask as he refused intubation.<br />
He has also given a very broad do not resuscitate order. In relation to the intubation<br />
refusal, he said, paraphrasing, "instead of intubating me, just shut me down <strong>with</strong><br />
morphine. I've just about had it. I've had enough."<br />
His breathing is very labored. It reminds me a lot of when my daughter Eva was a<br />
newborn and developed RSV. You can see his stomach trying to suck in to help draw air<br />
into the lungs.<br />
He seems to be cogent, at peace, and just wants to stop hurting.<br />
I love him. I hope tonight goes the way he wants it to.<br />
Posted by Gary Shuster at 06:46PM (-07:00)<br />
Dead<br />
Friday, April 20, 2012<br />
Dad died at 10:58 p.m. on April 18, 2012. He was 46 days away from his 50th wedding<br />
anniversary. In the week prior to his death, he conducted a Seder, watched his<br />
granddaughter open birthday gifts, watched Stanley Cup hockey, considered treatment<br />
<strong>with</strong> Votrient, and saw his doctor. He even saw a concert a couple of weeks ago.<br />
When he first got to the ICU on April 18, he asked me to please update his blog if he<br />
died. I promised I would. I will expand this post further as I get my thoughts together. I<br />
don't want to post too much until I can do so cogently.<br />
I miss him already.<br />
Posted by Gary Shuster at 12:59AM (-07:00)<br />
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