German Catalog 2006 USE THIS ONE.qxp - Michael Skurnik Wines
German Catalog 2006 USE THIS ONE.qxp - Michael Skurnik Wines
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As a junior in high school I took honors-English.<br />
Figures, right? I must admit I had no great love of reading;<br />
I rather had great love for the young woman who<br />
taught honors English, Jane Stepanski. Every year I realize<br />
how much Jane forgave us, and every year it seems<br />
like more.<br />
I wasn’t actually a nerd; I was a freak exactly two<br />
years before everyone else was. It was painfully solitary<br />
for awhile, and I craved a pack, any pack, and honors<br />
English helped satisfy the craving. Oh I read some, but<br />
mostly I was earnest and clueless. I recall a time when my<br />
classmates were especially derisive at what they called<br />
“truth-and-beauty poems.” I went along with the prevailing<br />
contempt; truth-and-beauty poems: pfui! Only ignorant<br />
clods liked those. What kinds of poems did I like?<br />
Um, er, ah . . . well—ahem—um, y’know, all kinds of<br />
poems as long as they are not truth-and-beauty poems.<br />
It might appear as though I look back on all this with<br />
disdain. Far from it. I see it as pitiable; we were so needy,<br />
we hungered for any scrap of certainty, any piece of solid<br />
floor we could stand on. And so we struck our fatuous<br />
attitudes and somehow Jane Stepanski didn’t spit at us.<br />
I got into wine as a man of twenty five. I was like<br />
every fledgling wine geek; it consumed me every hour of<br />
the day. Alas it also consumed anyone in my proximity<br />
for a couple years, for I was as great a wine-bore as has<br />
ever trod the earth. But I was greedy for knowledge, or<br />
rather for information, and I did as every young person<br />
does: I sought to subdue the subject by accumulating<br />
mastery over it. Ignorance was frustrating, and uncertainty<br />
was actively painful. And lo, there came a day when I<br />
felt I had at least as many answers as I had questions. I<br />
started, mercifully, to relax.<br />
I was amazingly lucky to get my basic wine education<br />
in Europe, where I lived the first five years of my<br />
drinking life. It gave me a solid grounding in the<br />
“Classics” of the wine world. I still believe it does the<br />
novice nothing but good to drink somewhat aloof, cool<br />
wines to start. (S)he is thus encouraged to approach a<br />
wine, to engage it, to have a kinetic relationship with it.<br />
This is substantially less possible (If not outright impossible)<br />
with most new-world wines, which want to do all<br />
the work for you, which shove you prone onto the sofa<br />
saying “You just watch, and I’ll strut my stuff.”<br />
Eventually, I came to see wine as the mechanical rabbit<br />
that keeps the greyhounds running along the track.<br />
No matter how much “knowledge” I hoarded, the ultimate<br />
target was the same distance away—if not further.<br />
The “truth” of wine, it seemed, was a sliding floor . . . and<br />
even then you had to first gain access to the room. This<br />
frustrated my craving for certainty, for command, for<br />
mastery. And for a period of time I was angry at wine.<br />
Now I rather think wine was angry with me. But, as<br />
patiently as my old honors-English teacher, wine set<br />
about teaching me what it really wanted me to know.<br />
First I needed to accept that in wine, uncertainty was<br />
an immutable fact of life. “The farther one travels, the less<br />
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one knows.” There was no sense struggling against it; all<br />
this did was retard my progress toward contentment. But it<br />
is a human desire to know, to ask why. Would wine always<br />
frustrate that desire as a condition of our relationship?<br />
Far from it. But I was asking the wrong why. I was<br />
asking why couldn’t I know everything about wine? I<br />
needed to ask why I couldn’t, why none of us ever can.<br />
The essential uncertainty exists ineluctably, or so it<br />
seemed, and the most productive questions finally<br />
became clear. What purpose does this uncertainty serve?<br />
What does it want of me?<br />
One answer was immediately clear: there would be<br />
no “answer.” There would, however, be an endless stream<br />
of ever-more interesting questions. And questions, it<br />
began to seem, were indeed more interesting than<br />
answers. In fact it was answers which were truly frustrating,<br />
for each answer precluded further questions. Each<br />
answer quashed, for a moment, the curiosity on which I’d<br />
come to feed. It seemed, after all, to be questioning and<br />
wondering which kept my elan vital humming.<br />
The less I insisted on subduing wine, the more of a<br />
friend it wanted to be. Now that I know that wine is an<br />
introvert which likes its private life, I don’t have to<br />
seduce away its secrets with my desire to penetrate. The<br />
very uncertainty keeps it interesting, and wine has<br />
grown to be very fine company. I’m inclined to guess that<br />
the uncertainty wants to remind me to always be curious,<br />
always be alert to the world, always be grateful that<br />
things are so fascinating, and to remember to be grateful<br />
for the hunger. Because the hunger is life. Accepting the<br />
irreducible mystery of wine has enabled me to immerse<br />
myself in it more deeply than I ever could when I sought<br />
to tame it.<br />
Immersion has come to be the key. I am immersed in<br />
the world, the world is immersed in me. There are filaments<br />
and connections, always buzzing and always<br />
alive. The world is not a commodity destined for my use;<br />
its cells are my cells, its secrets are my secrets. And every<br />
once in a while, usually when I least expect it, wine<br />
draws its mouth to my ear and says things to me. Time is<br />
different than you think. A universe can live inside a spec of<br />
flavor. There are doors everywhere to millions of interlocking<br />
worlds. Passion is all around us always. The earth groans<br />
sweetly sometimes, and small tears emerge, and tell us everything.<br />
Beauty is always closer than it seems. When you peer<br />
through the doorway, all you see is desire.<br />
You hear these words and it all sounds like gibberish,<br />
a stream of sound which doesn’t amount to anything and<br />
only confuses things more. But if you’ve ever held a<br />
restive infant, there’s a little trick you can do. Babies like to<br />
be whispered to; it fascinates them. They get a far-away<br />
look on their little faces, as if angels had entered their bodies.<br />
And so I do not need to know what wine is saying to<br />
me; it is enough that it speaks at all, enough that it leaves<br />
me aware of meanings even if these don’t fall neatly into a<br />
schemata, enough how sweet it feels, the warm moist<br />
breath of beauty and secrets, so soft and so close to my ear.<br />
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