Awareness in Buddhist Meditation
A detailed description of awareness in Buddhist Meditation.
A detailed description of awareness in Buddhist Meditation.
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happens to a watcher who is found asleep while on duty? He will<br />
be sacked because he was not a watcher. Likewise <strong>in</strong> all respects,<br />
there is no actor apart from his action. It is the action which makes<br />
the actor, just as a child makes one a father. This relationship between<br />
subject and object, between cause and effect, is only a mental<br />
separation which has no actual existence, for when one ceases, the<br />
other is not there either. The actor does not produce his act, and<br />
the act cannot cont<strong>in</strong>ue apart from the actor. There is only act<strong>in</strong>g,<br />
the verb which jo<strong>in</strong>s <strong>in</strong> itself both subject and object. Tak<strong>in</strong>g the<br />
two apart, there is no act<strong>in</strong>g, and hence neither actor nor act; apart<br />
from actual th<strong>in</strong>k<strong>in</strong>g, there is neither a th<strong>in</strong>ker nor his thought.<br />
Yet, this separation is made necessary by a m<strong>in</strong>d which wants<br />
to cont<strong>in</strong>ue <strong>in</strong> security and which cannot cont<strong>in</strong>ue <strong>in</strong> action. Action,<br />
whether walk<strong>in</strong>g or talk<strong>in</strong>g, th<strong>in</strong>k<strong>in</strong>g or anyth<strong>in</strong>g else cannot<br />
cont<strong>in</strong>ue unchanged. There is movement <strong>in</strong> action which cannot<br />
cease without caus<strong>in</strong>g the cessation of the act. In action there is no<br />
cont<strong>in</strong>uity, only proceed<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong> change, <strong>in</strong> renewal; but <strong>in</strong> renewal,<br />
<strong>in</strong> change, there is no identity or entity. And so, the m<strong>in</strong>d has <strong>in</strong>vented<br />
an entity to rema<strong>in</strong> constant while his action changes. Thus<br />
the owner rema<strong>in</strong>s even while his property has gone! Such is the<br />
absurdity the m<strong>in</strong>d is forced <strong>in</strong>to by its greed to cont<strong>in</strong>ue. And<br />
then see<strong>in</strong>g the contradiction <strong>in</strong> this conflict, there is fear. Fear of<br />
darkness is still there, even though a light is kept burn<strong>in</strong>g all night.<br />
There may be no darkness, but the fear of darkness rema<strong>in</strong>s as long<br />
as there is <strong>in</strong>security <strong>in</strong> the m<strong>in</strong>d.<br />
Such fear, therefore, has no real existence, although it is an<br />
actual experience. <strong>Awareness</strong> of the state of m<strong>in</strong>d will not provide a<br />
substitute for fear. The thought of a guardian-angel watch<strong>in</strong>g over<br />
you is a sublimation of that fear, just as a lamp burn<strong>in</strong>g dur<strong>in</strong>g<br />
the night. Fear rema<strong>in</strong>s as long as fear is not understood, as long<br />
fear is not seen as a search for security, as long as security is not<br />
understood as a desire for cont<strong>in</strong>uity as a separation of an actor and<br />
his act.