Awareness in Buddhist Meditation
A detailed description of awareness in Buddhist Meditation.
A detailed description of awareness in Buddhist Meditation.
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now projected <strong>in</strong>to the future as ideals, hopes and desires, ambitions,<br />
schemes, concepts of rebirth and re-<strong>in</strong>carnation, heavens and<br />
hells, eternity, God. They all try to cover up the <strong>in</strong>tr<strong>in</strong>sic fear of<br />
non-cont<strong>in</strong>uance, when the past is not certa<strong>in</strong> to cont<strong>in</strong>ue <strong>in</strong>to the<br />
future. What do we have <strong>in</strong> present? Pa<strong>in</strong>, hunger, short-lived joys<br />
remembered sorrows, unfulfilled desires, striv<strong>in</strong>g for escape <strong>in</strong>to an<br />
ideal with fears of non-atta<strong>in</strong>ment, fear of loss and <strong>in</strong>security of<br />
hope. Instead of that, we want pleasure and satisfaction, gratification<br />
and fulfilment, achievement and security. And as none of these<br />
can be found <strong>in</strong> the present moment, there is fear that even <strong>in</strong> the<br />
future they may not be atta<strong>in</strong>able. Thus we go back <strong>in</strong>to the past<br />
from which we have called up some memories of love and peace. And<br />
now we want to transplant those <strong>in</strong>to the future. But the future will<br />
always rema<strong>in</strong> unknown; and thus there is fear. That fear is now,<br />
not <strong>in</strong> the past, not <strong>in</strong> the future. And thus it is possible to be<br />
aware of that constant fear which gnaws at every experience of the<br />
moment. This fear twists our ideas, colours our thoughts, distorts<br />
our actions, sets up barriers of mistrust between people, creates opposition,<br />
destroys all love, prevents all understand<strong>in</strong>g. Reputation,<br />
social position, stability <strong>in</strong> a job, economic security, even health,<br />
friends and relations, all are forms <strong>in</strong> which the ‘self’ tries to endure,<br />
but <strong>in</strong> the possession of which arises the fear of los<strong>in</strong>g them.<br />
To live without fear is to live without expectations, to act without<br />
‘self’-project<strong>in</strong>g purpose. To live without fear is to live without the<br />
framework of protective memories and ideals. To live without fear is<br />
to live free from all identification. In understand<strong>in</strong>g the baselessness<br />
of fear <strong>in</strong> the absence of a ‘self’, there arises a direct and spontaneous<br />
relationship, which gives joy <strong>in</strong> surrender without purpose, <strong>in</strong><br />
giv<strong>in</strong>g without expectation, <strong>in</strong> lov<strong>in</strong>g without ‘self’.<br />
In the understand<strong>in</strong>g of a need, there is no fear of failure, because<br />
there is no ‘beyond’ <strong>in</strong> understand<strong>in</strong>g, and hence no thought of ga<strong>in</strong><br />
or loss. But when action reaches out beyond need, and thus becomes<br />
greed, there is the birth of fear.