Awareness in Buddhist Meditation
A detailed description of awareness in Buddhist Meditation.
A detailed description of awareness in Buddhist Meditation.
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neither the ‘self’, nor the ideal have any mean<strong>in</strong>g of their own. This<br />
freedom from measur<strong>in</strong>g, from comparison, from judg<strong>in</strong>g is not an<br />
achievement, an acquisition, a virtue; it is there when there is no<br />
identification, no desire for achiev<strong>in</strong>g, no will for becom<strong>in</strong>g. And<br />
that is the act of meditation <strong>in</strong> which the m<strong>in</strong>d empties itself of all<br />
condition<strong>in</strong>g, of all desires, hopes and fears, <strong>in</strong> which the m<strong>in</strong>d does<br />
not concentrate on a pre-chosen object or state, but just watches<br />
with direct awareness what is. Without focuss<strong>in</strong>g on what should<br />
be the ideal, without rely<strong>in</strong>g on memory as the foundation for such<br />
an ideal, but by direct perception of what is without judgement,<br />
there is an empty<strong>in</strong>g the m<strong>in</strong>d of all condition<strong>in</strong>g, of all distortion,<br />
delusion, conflict, of all ‘self’ deception and hypocrisy. This meditation<br />
is contemplation when thought is silent. It is not silence which<br />
has a start<strong>in</strong>g po<strong>in</strong>t <strong>in</strong> a centre; and it has no focus <strong>in</strong> the distance.<br />
It just is, without movement, without quality, without purpose. It<br />
does not come from somewhere; it cannot be produced, it cannot be<br />
felt, it cannot be remembered. It does not go <strong>in</strong>ward or outward,<br />
it is just all-pervad<strong>in</strong>g, and there is no awareness of a ‘self’ be<strong>in</strong>g<br />
<strong>in</strong>volved. It does not resist and it does not reject; it does not disturb<br />
and cannot be disturbed.<br />
There is no feel<strong>in</strong>g of happ<strong>in</strong>ess or joy or well-be<strong>in</strong>g; it is far<br />
above and beyond all that is puny and ego-centric. There is no<br />
centre, and there is no thought. There is no concentration, no focus,<br />
no po<strong>in</strong>tedness. It is just all and complete, with tenderness<br />
and subtleness, always fresh and new, without memory and without<br />
cl<strong>in</strong>g<strong>in</strong>g, without hope and without fear, without projection <strong>in</strong> time<br />
and space and without crav<strong>in</strong>g for cont<strong>in</strong>uance. There is no ‘I’ to<br />
th<strong>in</strong>k, to cl<strong>in</strong>g, to become, to cont<strong>in</strong>ue. It is just there, unborn,<br />
unconditioned, <strong>in</strong>dependent. It does not <strong>in</strong>volve the ‘I’, it does not<br />
embrace the ‘I’, it does not absorb the ‘I’. There just is no ‘I’ no<br />
‘self’, no other, no feel<strong>in</strong>g, no sensation, no perception, no concept,<br />
no image, no ideal.