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Awareness in Buddhist Meditation

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it realises the sameness of all be<strong>in</strong>gs and asks for neither preference<br />

nor acknowledgement. Yet, equanimity is not just a state hold<strong>in</strong>g<br />

the balance <strong>in</strong> the middle; for, that would for ever rema<strong>in</strong> a most<br />

precarious position, liable to be upset by the slightest unbalance on<br />

either side. Such may be the suspended awe <strong>in</strong> ecstasy where the obstacles<br />

are made <strong>in</strong>operative for the moment. Such mental attitude<br />

could be the outcome of m<strong>in</strong>d-control; but <strong>in</strong> control and discipl<strong>in</strong>e<br />

there is the effort to ma<strong>in</strong>ta<strong>in</strong> stability; there is self-restra<strong>in</strong>t and<br />

desire for a well-balanced condition. This condition is, however,<br />

still an ideal for which the m<strong>in</strong>d and the will strive <strong>in</strong> develop<strong>in</strong>g,<br />

<strong>in</strong> the hope of atta<strong>in</strong>ment of the ideal concept of equanimity. But,<br />

as long as equanimity rema<strong>in</strong>s an object as an ideal virtue, there<br />

is no even m<strong>in</strong>dedness, but only striv<strong>in</strong>g to become, escap<strong>in</strong>g from<br />

the turmoil of conflict, search<strong>in</strong>g for a peace <strong>in</strong> which the ‘self can<br />

cont<strong>in</strong>ue undisturbed.<br />

Once aga<strong>in</strong>, therefore, one has to tum away the view from the<br />

objective goal which is the goal of subjective striv<strong>in</strong>g, as all this<br />

effort is only an escape from conflict <strong>in</strong>to the image of tranquillity.<br />

What is the object of this striv<strong>in</strong>g for mental peace? It is the ‘I’<br />

who is be<strong>in</strong>g disturbed and hence seeks peace. And what is this<br />

disturbance? In the non-acceptance of what is there is the build<strong>in</strong>g<br />

up of an ideal image from which all disturbances may be excluded.<br />

And what is there to disturb the ‘I’? What is the ‘I’ to be disturbed?<br />

While writ<strong>in</strong>g or concentrat<strong>in</strong>g on my studies, I am distracted by<br />

external noises. But those noises are not external; they are the<br />

reactions of thought to the reception <strong>in</strong> the senses. That means<br />

that I am that reaction; and that I am the disturbance. It is the<br />

reaction of rejection which is the disturbance.<br />

Merely to force thought to concentrate more on my books and<br />

study will not reduce the disturbance; for, my <strong>in</strong>creased objection<br />

and rejection can only <strong>in</strong>crease the opposition which has been made<br />

by the isolation of ‘self’. Now, the entire process is reversed, as it<br />

were. Instead of concentrat<strong>in</strong>g on a suppression of a disturbance

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