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to become perfect. Awareness does not follow up such thought of
ideal perfection, but sees and observes the thought of desire which
is actual. The desire is here, is actual; because I do not like the fact
of being imperfect; and my reaching out for that ideal is thus an
attempted escape. In the awareness of this attempt can also be seen
the futility of reaching out for an ideal, which after all is made by the
same mind, the ideal of escaping from what l am, to become what
I am not. In this awareness thought ceases, as the ideal becomes
meaningless and void. In the cessation of thought, of striving, of
escaping, of becoming, there is the freedom from all conditioning.