Aphoristic Writings, Notebook, and Letters to a Friend, by Otto ...

As the sun darkened, Christ’s spirits fell; then he spoke: “God, why hast thou
forsaken me?” 27
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The profound thing in The Master Builder is the unity of evil through space and
time. My evil desire is matched by an evil (and a fear) somewhere else. He who fears
the murderer, posits him; he who intends to murder, posits him who fears the
murderer.
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When fly-likeness (Jewishness?) is unconscious in me– i.e. I have fly-like
“qualities”, I am herein unfree – there is the appearance of the fly against which I, as a
feeling, am unfree: yet space is there in the same moment. So I demonstrate the
problem of externalisation, of projection, of space, as the other side of the problem of
animal psychology, of natural symbology.
The criminal hallucinates the poisonous fly and perishes from mistaken fear
through heart attack. It is the fly in himself which has triumphed.
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The neurasthenic (the person who fears outward death) is stung by the same fly
that has shaped his misfortune and fear over his entire life, in the same moment where
he gives reality to it, when he says: now it comes.
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Sickness is a special case of neurasthenia. Sickness is neurasthenia in the body.
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The transition from neurasthenia to sickness must form skin disease.
27 Matthew 27: 45-6; Mark 15: 33-4; Luke 23: 45. [Trans]
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