An Authentic Life 1.1 for pdf - Universalist Radha-Krishnaism

will be drained. Here people are chanting Hare
Krishna twenty-four hours a day. They are always
remembering Krishna's pastimes."
I became a friend of another god brother of
Swamiji named Purushottam Das. We talked about
developing the amorous relationship with Radha-
Krishna. We translated charts that outlined the chief
girlfriends relationships with Radha-Krishna as well
as other information unavailable in English. Neither,
Purushottam nor Dr. Kapoor were aware of Bhaktisiddhanta,
their teacher, ever revealing a disciple's relationship
with Radha-Krishna.
When Swamiji visited Vrindaban, I got Dr. Kapoor
to come with me and ask him about revealing
the eleven moods of my devotion as a girlfriend of
Radha-Krishna as was commonly practiced in Vrindaban,
since Swamiji never taught us about that. Dr.
Kapoor was the one who introduced me to the concept.
He acted as my advocate and argued the case for
me.
Swamiji said, "This is not done in our line. One
must realize his relationship for himself. One cannot
just jump ahead. When one is ripe and ready, it will
be revealed from within. . . . I am a cowherd boy."
I still wasn’t satisfied. I knew there was more.
By this time, I thought Swamiji held his disciples back
from developing an amorous relationship with
Radha-Krishna and engaging in the meditative states
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