An Authentic Life 1.1 for pdf - Universalist Radha-Krishnaism

started out, so we should march to the sea and chant
for the incarnation of the Maitreya Buddha who
promised to liberate all people. However, most of the
people there had a "Well, now the party's over, let's go
home" attitude.
I saw that LSD wasn't the way to spiritual
liberation--coming down one more time. I lay in the
woods just to the east of the soccer field in San Francisco’s
Golden Gate Park, crying and being comforted
by my lover, Carolyn. As I came down, I realized after
almost two years of taking LSD religiously that it
would not bring me the desired eternal liberation I
sought. I felt utterly devastated.
I hated coming down. LSD and the Human Bein
weren't just a fun drug experience for me. They
were a means to spiritual liberation--release from the
sufferings of this material existence. The goal was to
merge with the white light and not return. Void out--
lose all sense of individuality and egotism. Become
one with the divine. I went to the Human Be-in with
high expectations of attaining this goal, but they were
crushed.
I believed in God and reincarnation. That was
the main thing keeping Carolyn and I from taking a
very large dose of acid and jumping off the Golden
Gate Bridge together and leaving this material existence.
We didn't think it was that easy to escape. It
was like cheating on a test or copping out of what we
were here to do.
While sex, drugs, and rock’n’roll were great,
they just weren't enough. Our spirits longed for more.
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