An Authentic Life 1.1 for pdf - Universalist Radha-Krishnaism

A van full of devotees picked me up at the L.A.
airport. They brought food for me to eat on the way to
the temple. When I got there, I went to Prabhupad's
room. Brahmananda and others were there. I entered
and offered obeisance to Prabhupad.
Prabhupad said, "So you've come. You know
it's been postponed for another month until Krishna's
appearance day in New Vrindaban."
I was shocked that I came all that way expecting
to take sannyas only to find that it was postponed
a month. This required real renunciation.
That evening, the other prospective swamis
and I sat with Prabhupad in his private walled garden.
He said to me. "Do you know what 'yasya prasadad,
bhagavat prasada, yasya prasadana gatir kutopi'
means?"
This was from a prayer to the spiritual master
that devotees sang every morning. I said, "It means if
the spiritual master is pleased Krishna is pleased. If
the spiritual master is displeased, there is no way of
pleasing Krishna."
"Yes! And I am displeased."
"Well, tell me what's displeasing you, and I'll
do whatever I can to correct it. After all, I am going to
be a sannyasi."
"Sannyasi or no sannyasi, any disciple should be
willing to do anything to please the spiritual master."
Prabhupad wouldn't reveal what bothered
him. I was new in Los Angeles now and didn’t know
what was going on. The next day, we decided we
didn’t want to wait a month to take sannyas. Brah-
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