TANTRIC-QUEST-Encounter-with-Absolute-Love

Even though it's impalpable, my consciousness touches itdeeply. Ether is real. Only my superficial contact with etheris not real."We waited to get dry before dressing ourselves againand climbing to Devi's hut. She rekindled the fire, boiledwater and dry milk, and threw in some salt and oat flakes,which she let swell as she stirred them with a spatula. Thenshe made ginger tea and spread out four bowls betweenus. She leaned over the food and asked me to hold myhand out in front of me, open. In one swift motion, sheseized an ember with her fingertips. At the moment shewas going to drop it into my hand, I drew back quickly. Theember fell on the ground and crumbled."This is the tattva of fire. You didn't touch the fire. Youdon't have confidence.""I have confidence in you. But with a burnt hand, howcould I carry out all my tasks?""Sometimes my fire burns, sometimes it doesn't burn.Without total confidence there can be no spiritual transmission.You answered me, 'I have confidence in you.' Butthat isn't the important point. What counts is to have confidencein yourself. Absolute confidence. That's all a masterlooks for to kindle in a disciple. Without absolute selfconfidence,there's no opening of the heart. To touch thesethirty-six tattvas is essential. To pass through this contactopens the place where one can experience the divine. Todraw back your hand is to burn yourself."I extended my hand. I closed my eyes."I am ready to touch the fire."For a very long time, nothing happened. Then I felt asharp burning. I let out a cry and opened my eyes. Nothing64