For Lilian and the Indigos - Above Top Secret

ineffectual at preparing youth for life outside of its walls, or instilling basic values that
the parents can't cuz they went to the same school... You got these annoying Kool Kid
Kliques roaming around, smelly hallways, crappy food, a severe lack of technology,
uncomfortable seating, routine routine routine, hotty bitches you know you'll never get to
fuck, bullies who can find nothin’ better to do than intimidate you, making you feel like a
wretched gaping pussy.
If you’ve got any friends who can empathize, they are probably assholes. You need a job
to get a car, you need a car to get a job, and if you pull that off the boss is a prick and the
car breaks down cuz ITS ALL ERROR ACTIVATED... You are skinny with zits, but you
know someone who'll buy you forties and that takes the edge off.... You consider your
options. The paths that you have been offered don't quite jive...ARMY? Yeah right. Life
of crime? Well I already feel like a prisoner. Not everyone gets caught. Perhaps if I do
something drastic while I'm young and do get caught they will finally listen and know
they pushed me into this victim state of mind...besides in Jail I won't have to think about
food, clothing, and shelter...
And then one day my little psycho brother got punched in the face by his step father for
his poor grades and decided that someone has to die. He reasoned that if someone didn't
die now it would just be worse eventually, and he is right. If a world leader can justify
violence this way...
Hey, y'know, maybe if the girl was a little more humble and honest and sensitive...Maybe
if the parents would lighten up about the pot and not let his appearance embarrass them,
maybe if the classes he took were more fun, diverse, relevant and interesting...maybe my
little psycho brother wouldn't have wasted all those people. Maybe he would have held
out and learned from his depression, harnessed his rage to be productive BUT...
Girls are bitches, the PDFA kept bugging his folks to be responsible and the Education
Department stayed in denial.
Maybe if he had learned the good kind of "FUCK IT" that comes from knowing Christ,
all the bullshit in the world woulda rolled right off him. But the salesmen/proselytizers
witnessing procedure seemed so fake and self righteous, so preachy, generic and out of
touch. He never let Christ into his life because these men are incapable of representing
the TRUTH. They would never say go ahead and puff herb, listen to Deicide, play
Resident Evil. It’s actually all inconsequential in light of the TRUTH!
Oh yeah, you don't need to be clean cut, popular or a high school graduate to enter the
kingdom. They would never say this!
These men actually repel my little psycho brothers from Christ, and when he does open
fire, he is only teaching them so...teachin’ ’em that when yer truly hopeless and on the
verge, God don't mean shit. And the Christians in that school/community like to show
how Christian they are by FORGIVING him. Don't address what led to his breakdown,
just forgive him and pray...then lock him up and await the next "crisis." And NO,