I'm Still Human: Understanding Depression With Kindness (Expanded Edition - 2021)

~ Guilt ~
Very often, I’m not a good mother. I feel guilty whenever I
can’t perform my role as a mother well. I often lose patience with
my kids when I need to guide them in their studies. The same goes
when they are playing loudly. I know that they are just kids (it’s not
their fault), but I just can’t tolerate them. I’ll yell at them when my
mood is horrible. I even cane them badly for their misbehavior. I’m
also losing interest in being with and playing with them. See, I’m
such a terrible mother, I’m sure you’ll agree with me.
Two weeks ago, my mood was swinging terribly and I needed a
quiet moment for myself. As usual, I hid myself in the room. At that
moment, my little daughter came in and talked to me. Like a mad
woman, I lost control completely and chased her out of my room.
My daughter was stunned and frightened by my inexplicable
behavior.
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