I'm Still Human: Understanding Depression With Kindness (Expanded Edition - 2021)

~ Self-harm ~
I know I’m not supposed to kill myself to end my pain. But at
the same time, the pain is really unbearable. Finally, I discovered a
way to get relief from my emotional pain - SELF HARM.
In order to reduce my mental pain, I harm myself physically (i.e. I
violently pinch myself or to shower in high temperature water) to
induce physical pain. The physical pain helps to divert my attention
from the mental pain which is much worse. Whenever I can’t cope
with my mental pain, this self-harm tendency will crop up; it’s
becoming a habit.
I understand that this is not the healthy way. But I don’t know of a
better way. I would rather have physical pain than mental pain.
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