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10 TUI: TWO ,.<br />
vinced, and IIP longed to be received into <strong>the</strong> bosom <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />
Church. At times he fancied himself a member <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> Church,<br />
and, f<strong>or</strong>getting everything else in <strong>the</strong> pleasing thought, he<br />
would be happy f<strong>or</strong> a moment ; but in an instant <strong>the</strong> illusion<br />
would vanish, and his fa<strong>the</strong>r's cold, stern face, would rise<br />
bef<strong>or</strong>e him, and <strong>the</strong> rage <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> will which he had never yet<br />
dared to contradict, would appear ready to overwhelm him in<br />
<strong>the</strong> intensity <strong>of</strong> its madness when he should discover all ; and<br />
po<strong>or</strong> Edwin, shuddering and trembling, would hide his face in<br />
his hands, and beg <strong>of</strong> God to give him strength to be faithful<br />
when <strong>the</strong> fearful struggle should arrive.<br />
Six months passed away, and Edwin felt that he could not<br />
bear it much longer. He had never entered a Catholic <strong>church</strong><br />
since <strong>the</strong> mem<strong>or</strong>able Christmas night, and he knew no Catholic<br />
to whom he could speak ; but he felt that he must soon take<br />
some decisive step. At length, after much anxious thought, he<br />
came to <strong>the</strong> determination <strong>of</strong> writing to Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace, whom<br />
he knew, from inquiries which he had made, to be <strong>the</strong> priest<br />
<strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> neighb<strong>or</strong>ing chapel. He briefly stated his position ;<br />
that he had read Catholic w<strong>or</strong>ks and was virtually convinced<br />
<strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> truth <strong>of</strong> that religion ; that he was anxious to know<br />
<strong>of</strong> all to make everything known to his fa<strong>the</strong>r, as that gentleman,<br />
being a member <strong>of</strong> a <strong>church</strong> which is always so loud in<br />
its pr<strong>of</strong>essions <strong>of</strong> liberty <strong>of</strong> conscience, could not complain <strong>of</strong><br />
his son's following that which his conscience pointed<br />
out to<br />
him to be right. Po<strong>or</strong> Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace ! he little knew Mr.<br />
Stanhope when he gave this advice ; f<strong>or</strong>, with men <strong>of</strong> Mr.<br />
Stanhope's class, liberty <strong>of</strong> conscience is all very well when it<br />
concerns yourself, but it is a different thing when it concerns<br />
your children, your dependents, &c. In <strong>the</strong> second place, he<br />
pressed Edwin most earnestly to come and see him as soon as<br />
he possibly could, as <strong>the</strong>y would be able to gee <strong>the</strong>ir way much<br />
clearer after a personal interview, and when <strong>the</strong>y knew each<br />
o<strong>the</strong>r better ; concluding by again pressing upon him to men-<br />
tion all to his fa<strong>the</strong>r, but assuring him that, until he did so,<br />
his secret was perfectly safe with him. Edwin would have<br />
given w<strong>or</strong>lds to be able to follow Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace's advice, and<br />
time after time in imagination he went through <strong>the</strong> interview,<br />
in which, after telling his fa<strong>the</strong>r all, he was to fall upon his<br />
neck and beg <strong>of</strong> him not to spurn him. On m<strong>or</strong>e than one<br />
evening, on which Mr. Stanhope had been unusually kind to<br />
him, Edwin actually rose to his feet to go down stairs to his<br />
fa<strong>the</strong>r's room to tell him all, but again <strong>the</strong> cold, stern face rose<br />
up bef<strong>or</strong>e him, and, groaning aloud, " O God !<br />
O<br />
God ! I can-<br />
not, I dare not do it," he threw himself on a chair, and wept<br />
as if his young and loving heart would break.<br />
to take a decisive step, and he trembled as he contemplated it.<br />
Several times he was about to turn back, and he even felt glad<br />
when he experienced a difficulty in finding <strong>the</strong> house he sought.<br />
He wavered f<strong>or</strong> a moment, and was about to return, when,<br />
ig once m<strong>or</strong>e down <strong>the</strong> street, his eye fell upon <strong>the</strong> cross<br />
surmounting <strong>the</strong> gable <strong>of</strong> Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace's <strong>church</strong>, and hailing<br />
<strong>the</strong> sacred emblem, courage returned to his heart, <strong>the</strong> moment<br />
<strong>of</strong> hesitation was over, <strong>the</strong> demon was vanquished, anil, in ano<strong>the</strong>r<br />
instant, he was at <strong>the</strong> dwelling <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> priest, had knocked<br />
timidly at his do<strong>or</strong>, and was warmly clapped in <strong>the</strong> embrace <strong>of</strong><br />
him whom he sought. In a few minutes he was sitting in <strong>the</strong><br />
easy chair in <strong>the</strong> priest's little room, and had time to look upon<br />
Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace, who sat opposite to him. He was at first ra<strong>the</strong>r<br />
.disappointed, f<strong>or</strong> Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace did not quite come up to <strong>the</strong><br />
ideas he had f<strong>or</strong>med <strong>of</strong> a priest. Edwin, who, to a great extent,<br />
had f<strong>or</strong>med his notions <strong>of</strong> a priest from books and from his own<br />
ra<strong>the</strong>r romantic ideas, thought Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace was scarcely<br />
pale enough, and that <strong>the</strong>re was not sufficient mystery about<br />
him ; in one w<strong>or</strong>d, that he was ra<strong>the</strong>r too matter-<strong>of</strong>-fact ; but<br />
when he looked into <strong>the</strong> kind bright eye, and saw it glistening<br />
with sympathy and interest, and when he listened to <strong>the</strong> pleas-<br />
ant and encouraging voice, he f<strong>or</strong>got <strong>the</strong> romance in <strong>the</strong> reality,<br />
and <strong>the</strong> reality was that he had found a real, true, sincere, and<br />
kind friend.<br />
Yes, dear Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace, <strong>the</strong> grave has closed over <strong>the</strong>e now,<br />
and thou hast gone to thy reward. Like <strong>the</strong> very best <strong>of</strong> us<br />
when we are gone, men very seldom mention <strong>the</strong>e ; but <strong>the</strong>re<br />
m<strong>or</strong>e and to fulfil <strong>the</strong> will <strong>of</strong> God, but that he was entirely<br />
dependent upon his is, at least, one heart which misses <strong>the</strong> pleasant twinkle <strong>of</strong> thy<br />
fa<strong>the</strong>r, whose anger he knew would be<br />
terrible when he should discover all this, and he concluded by<br />
begging Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace to counsel and advise him what to do.<br />
Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace wrote to him immediately, advising him first<br />
bright black eye, and <strong>the</strong> joyous gladness <strong>of</strong> thy sunny smile,<br />
telling, as it ever did, <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> overflowing goodness <strong>of</strong> thy own<br />
great heart. <strong>The</strong>re is one who never will and who never can<br />
f<strong>or</strong>get that when he came to <strong>the</strong>e, like Edwin, f<strong>or</strong> advice, he<br />
found <strong>the</strong>e a kind and prudent counsell<strong>or</strong>, and who, when he,<br />
later on, came to <strong>the</strong>e an outcast from his home and friends,<br />
f<strong>or</strong> daring to do that which was right, found in thy dear and<br />
gushing love that which repaid him to <strong>the</strong> full, and which<br />
made him f<strong>or</strong>get all that he had left behind. <strong>The</strong>re is, at least,<br />
one who will never f<strong>or</strong>get <strong>the</strong> pride with which thou didst watch<br />
his onward steps in <strong>the</strong> way <strong>of</strong> God one who will never ;<br />
f<strong>or</strong>get<br />
that thy sympathy was ever deepest when his need was greatest<br />
one ; who, so long as it shall be given him to ascend <strong>the</strong><br />
altar <strong>of</strong> God, will never f<strong>or</strong>get <strong>the</strong>e, n<strong>or</strong> allow thy hon<strong>or</strong>ed and<br />
revered remembrance to pass from out his heart, but who will<br />
cherish to <strong>the</strong> last <strong>the</strong> mem<strong>or</strong>y <strong>of</strong> his best and dearest friend.<br />
Peace be with th e, dear Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace.<br />
<strong>The</strong> interview between Edwin and Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace was long,<br />
f<strong>or</strong> <strong>the</strong>y had much to say to each o<strong>the</strong>r. Edwin opened his<br />
heart most freely to his newly-found friend, and concealed<br />
nothing from him. Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace found him perfectly well<br />
read up in Catholic doctrine, and requiring but very little m<strong>or</strong>e<br />
instruction bef<strong>or</strong>e being in a fit state to be received into <strong>the</strong><br />
Church. His eff<strong>or</strong>ts were, <strong>the</strong>ref<strong>or</strong>e, principally directed to<br />
inspiring him with courage and confidence to take <strong>the</strong> desired,<br />
but at <strong>the</strong> same time, dreaded step. To say that Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace<br />
was at once most deeply interested in <strong>the</strong> generous, highminded<br />
boy who had thus come to him would be superfluous.<br />
He saw how <strong>the</strong> mighty hand <strong>of</strong> God had brought <strong>the</strong> w<strong>or</strong>k<br />
about in its own mysterious way, and he determined that<br />
nothing should be wanting on his part to perfect what had<br />
been so happily begun ; but his open brow became clouded<br />
CHAPTEE IX.<br />
NEW FRIEND AND A TKUE ONE. STOLEN INTERVIEWS.<br />
APPROACHES.<br />
A CRISIS<br />
ONE Sunday evening in June, when Mr. Stanhope was dining<br />
out, Edwin set <strong>of</strong>f to pay his first visit to Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace. He<br />
had dropped a line <strong>the</strong> day bef<strong>or</strong>e, saying that he would seize<br />
<strong>the</strong> opp<strong>or</strong>tunity, and begging <strong>the</strong> priest to make arrangements<br />
that <strong>the</strong>y might be and sadly thoughtful as he contemplated <strong>the</strong> difficulties to be<br />
overcome.<br />
Finding<br />
perfectly private, as he was as much afraid<br />
as ever <strong>of</strong> his fa<strong>the</strong>r acquiring any knowledge <strong>of</strong> that in which<br />
he was engaged.<br />
Edwin's heart beat very fast, indeed, as he entered <strong>the</strong> street<br />
in which Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace dwelt. He felt that he was now about<br />
that he could not prevail upon Edwin to mention<br />
this matter to his fa<strong>the</strong>r at present, he selected from his small,<br />
but choice, library several w<strong>or</strong>ks which he deemed would be<br />
useful to his young friend, counselled him to make himself<br />
m<strong>or</strong>e intimately acquainted with <strong>the</strong> Catholic religion, and<br />
placing himself in <strong>the</strong> hands <strong>of</strong> God without reserve, to trust<br />
to <strong>the</strong> loving Providence which "reacheth from end to end<br />
mightily, and disposethall things sweetly, "to bring everything<br />
to a fav<strong>or</strong>able issue in its own good time. He besought him to<br />
be fervent in prayer, that God might dispose his fa<strong>the</strong>r to receive<br />
<strong>the</strong> inf<strong>or</strong>mation with less anger than Edwin dreaded, mid<br />
assuring him that he would daily remember him at <strong>the</strong> altar,<br />
begged that he would come and see him as <strong>of</strong>ten as possible.<br />
During <strong>the</strong> four months that followed, Edwin had several<br />
stolen interviews with his friend, whom he loved m<strong>or</strong>e and<br />
m<strong>or</strong>e. Fa<strong>the</strong>r Eustace us urgent with him to i<br />
step, and throw himself, unreservedly, into <strong>the</strong> arms <strong>of</strong> Pruvi-