Zbornik Mednarodnega literarnega srečanja Vilenica 2003 - Ljudmila
Zbornik Mednarodnega literarnega srečanja Vilenica 2003 - Ljudmila
Zbornik Mednarodnega literarnega srečanja Vilenica 2003 - Ljudmila
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Conversation with the wanderer<br />
What I want, he says, perhaps<br />
I wanted to be a bird, a swallow<br />
I saw, there, high in the mountains,<br />
and wanted to stay there myself<br />
in the shadow of the house by the river<br />
where he nested, from where he flew up.<br />
I remember the return,<br />
the warm twilight on the terrace,<br />
how I sat there, following the meanders<br />
of the river into the fields, the hazy lines<br />
of the mountains up into the distance,<br />
the flight of a swallow -<br />
until he disappeared.<br />
I was tired and went up again in thought<br />
into the mountains, higher and higher,<br />
to that lonely, lucid world of rock,<br />
sat there again in the wind and gazed<br />
into the depths.<br />
Perhaps, he says, I want something<br />
I can look at for ever, that house<br />
down there, the nest I have myself deserted,<br />
and the meanders of the river, the lines<br />
of the mountains, laid still at last,<br />
as it was there, the moment I<br />
disappeared from view, something<br />
that exists beyond myself.<br />
206<br />
I cavalli di Leonardo<br />
All those sketches he left behind -<br />
endless series of repetitions: bunches of muscles, sinews,<br />
knuckles, joints, the entire machinery<br />
of driving-belts and levers with which<br />
a horse moves,<br />
and out of thousands of hair-thin little lines, the skin<br />
almost invisibly gently disappearing into the paper<br />
of ears and eyelids, nostrils,<br />
skin of the soul -<br />
he must have wanted to find out how a horse<br />
is made and have realized<br />
it can't be done,<br />
how the secret of a horse grew and grew<br />
beneath his pencil.<br />
Made the most splendid designs, studied them,<br />
discarded them<br />
What is happiness?<br />
Because happiness is a memory<br />
it exists because at the same time<br />
the reverse is also true<br />
I mean this: because happiness<br />
reminds us of happiness it pursues<br />
us and therefore we flee from it<br />
and vice versa, I mean this: that we<br />
look for happiness because it<br />
hides in our memories and<br />
vice versa, I mean this: happiness<br />
must exist somewhere at some time because<br />
we remember it and it reminds us.<br />
207<br />
Translated from the Dutch by James Brockway