Zbornik Mednarodnega literarnega srečanja Vilenica 2003 - Ljudmila
Zbornik Mednarodnega literarnega srečanja Vilenica 2003 - Ljudmila
Zbornik Mednarodnega literarnega srečanja Vilenica 2003 - Ljudmila
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- I agree with you, sweetheart. I can't think of anything more stupid.<br />
- There you are then!<br />
- Would you be so kind and see to it, so that I don't have to go hunting myself?<br />
She seethed.<br />
- It's people like you, serious and considerate, who thought up all this nonsense! Rules,<br />
taxes, religions and even those neckties you so nonchalantly strangle yourself with!<br />
He laughed at her revolt. He stood up and went to the door, indicating that the debate<br />
was over.<br />
- Aha! So the audience is at an end?<br />
She took a box of matches and threw it at him. I don't want another fellow in the house!<br />
I want a female cook!<br />
He poked his head back round the door. He tried to keep his face straight, but the<br />
corners of his mouth were twitching and his eyes were full of laughter.<br />
- If you can do that, I'll take my hat off to you. To be a cook is a question of caste - and<br />
it's always a male.<br />
On Sunday he got back from the building site before lunch and announced that he had<br />
the afternoon to himself. They sat in the garden. The scent of fresh coffee and mango,<br />
the child in its playpen under a handwoven mosquito net, noontime dreams in the shade<br />
of the banyan tree. Suddenly she jumped up. I have something for you! Her face split in<br />
a broad smile as she placed an enormous melon before him. The knife cut gently into<br />
the pulp, and from the dark green skin oozed pink goo and a sour smell.<br />
- Where's it been kept?<br />
- On the verandah.<br />
- It's over-ripe. In fact, it's fermenting.<br />
He dug into it with the spoon she'd prepared and couldn't stop laughing.<br />
- Would you share some over-done goo with me?<br />
- No! I'll hire the cook!<br />
Zam Singh brought another breath of the Indian spirit into the house, and countless<br />
more bewitching perfumes. Coriander, ginger, cardoman, tumeric and chilli. He was<br />
always smiling and hummed continuously. It sounded like a double bass playing. A<br />
turban on his head and a moustache under his nose, his well-kept beard plaited into<br />
braids which disappeared into his hair like two tiny snakes. He was friendly and<br />
companionable, keeping clear only of the dog. Amon, on the other hand, followed him<br />
eagerly, because his eternally famished snout could not fail to miss the preparation of<br />
any meal. Rachel scarcely noticed this, whereas Thomas was amused. Zam, I don't want<br />
to admit this, but that dog is fonder of you than of me!<br />
As time passed and she became more accustomed to life in India, Mama asked Zam to<br />
prepare something from the Bengali cuisine. Zam flew around the kitchen like a white<br />
bat. His kingdom was furnished with every essential piece of equipment, including a<br />
pulverising machine handed down from generation to generation. Sil nora. I admired<br />
that thing from my earliest childhood. Zam clutched a smooth oval stone in his hand<br />
and drove it back and forth across the surface of a pentagonal stone on which lay lentils<br />
or something else.<br />
Apart from payesh, Zam's version of rice pudding, I adored fish done in the Bengali<br />
manner. Every kind. There is nothing better than fresh fish steamed in mustard sauce<br />
thickened with poppy seeds and served with rice.<br />
When Mama first allowed me to go with Zam to the fish market, I was in raptures. I ran<br />
here and there in the stifling Babylonian odour and chatter, poking my nose into baskets<br />
full of florid shrimps, crabs, catfish and sardines. In dumbstruck amazement I followed<br />
the flashes of the sharp boti, with which the sellers divided the catch. Zam offered to let<br />
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me choose, to point out which fish I wanted, but that was an unhuman task. I couldn't<br />
decide, I pointed to the right and to the left and somewhere else again. I wanted them<br />
all. In the end I did choose. It was a gold-coloured fish. Topshey. The English call it<br />
mango fish, but for me it was a golden fish, and I didn't want any other. When we got<br />
back all I could think of was that we would have my golden fish for dinner. I wanted to<br />
play with it; I wanted to take it to bed with my teddy bear. Mama got angry.<br />
- You can't take a dead fish to bed!<br />
- It's not dead, it's mine! I chose it!<br />
- Listen to me. I know you chose it, but that fish is not for playing with. If you like, we'll<br />
get you an aquarium for your birthday and you can put another golden fish in there and<br />
look after it, all right?<br />
- And why can't we have my fish in the aquarium?<br />
- Because it's dead, and dead fish don't swim. They have to be eaten. As soon as<br />
possible!<br />
I scowled. She lost her patience.<br />
- If you can't be sensible, I'm not going to allow you to go to the market next time!<br />
I lost my patience as well.<br />
- I don't care!<br />
In the evening I cried in my room while my parents ate my golden fish. I had fought in<br />
vain and what was more, I was afraid my mother would never let me visit the fish market<br />
again. I sneaked into the dining room and watched them eating it all up. Papa noticed<br />
me. He put his knife down. A sinewy forearm in a rolled-up sleeve waved to me to come<br />
in. Do you want to taste the golden fish? He sat me on his knee. He almost never got<br />
angry. I looked at mama out of the corner of my eye. She was smiling. That gave me<br />
courage.<br />
- And when can I have an aquarium?<br />
They looked at each other over my head and burst out laughing.<br />
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Translated by Barabara Day