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who he is, everyone judges him, and they are all the more<br />

indignant as they see how wrongly they esteemed him. 220<br />

Once he has been exposed as a fraud, the proud monk faces a crucial moment of decision.<br />

With his specious reputation in ruins and his deceit exposed to the judgment of his<br />

brothers, he might choose to confront himself honestly, to face up to the manifest reality<br />

of his own sinfulness, and so embark upon the bitter but life-giving way of self-judgment,<br />

humility, and repentance. Yet, Bernard observes, such a choice is extremely difficult for<br />

the proud monk as it requires him to bow to the will of his superiors and to accept silently<br />

the judgment of the entire community. It is possible, Bernard allows, that by God’s<br />

mercy, the proud monk may be moved to humble himself in this way, but it is more likely<br />

that the monk who has grown so convinced of his own superiority and so come to define<br />

himself in terms of his brothers’ praise will not find himself able to bear such an affront<br />

to his pride. And so, driven by his swollen love of his own excellence, he refuses<br />

obedience to his superiors, refuses any public confession before his brothers, and instead<br />

chooses shamelessly to assert his own will in defiance of both.<br />

By this tenth step of pride, rebellion against his superiors, the proud monk inverts<br />

Benedict’s third step of humility, that a monk “should submit to his superior in all<br />

obedience for the love of God, imitating the Lord of whom the Apostle says: ‘He became<br />

obedient even to death’ (Phil 2:8).” 221 On Bernard’s reading of the Rule, it is here, in the<br />

third step of humility, that one ascending this ladder enters the monastic enclosure for it<br />

220 Hum 47 (III, 52): “Quanta putas tunc confusio sit in corde superbi, cum fraus decipitur, pax<br />

amittitur, laus minuitur, nec culpa diluitur? Tandem notatur ab omnibus, iudicatur ab omnibus, eo que<br />

vehementius omnes indignantur, quo falsum conspiciunt quidquid de eo prius opinabantur.”<br />

221 RB 7.34: “Tertius humilitatis gradus est ut quis pro Dei amore omni oboedientia se subdat<br />

maiori, imitans Dominum, de quo dicit apostolus: Factus oboediens usque ad mortem.”<br />

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