Publikacija SEP 2011 - Vilenica
Publikacija SEP 2011 - Vilenica
Publikacija SEP 2011 - Vilenica
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Some days were harder than others.<br />
“Bathe her like you wash a car; sit her on the edge of the bathtub,<br />
remove the shower head and pour. Give her a sponge and let her soap<br />
up her privates by herself,” said mum, when I asked her advice.<br />
Her body was like the meat of a dead seal; wherever I pressed the<br />
sponge harder, it left a bruise, the skin on her feet was dry and covered<br />
with scales – crusts of dirt and dead epidermis in fact; that part<br />
needed a good soaking to start with. Grandma resisted and screamed<br />
at first (“Damn you! You damn scumbag,” she yelled.) like a giant<br />
gremlin, afraid that the water would turn it into a monster – as if that<br />
ridiculous metamorphosis had not already taken place. All of a sudden,<br />
she settled down, took my hand and said: “Promise me, promise<br />
me that you’ll protect me.” I nodded; her eyes were veiled by misty<br />
white cataracts, which looked like the cream that accumulates on the<br />
surface of warm milk. I did not wash her like a car; I bathed her as<br />
if I was bathing a child. I poured warm water over her hair which<br />
trickled down her breasts, her sadly tousled pubic hair, down her toes<br />
with claw-like nails. Water flowed into the drain in a muddy stream, I<br />
watched it, thinking about my mother, who was only one death away<br />
from retirement, thinking about Vjeran and me and the future – who<br />
will be beside me to tame my raging madness, lurking in my genes like<br />
a prophesy, who will bathe me then and if that someone will wash me<br />
like a car or like a child.<br />
Translated by Špela Bibič<br />
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