The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
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SENSATION AND SENTIMENT<br />
overtaken by the process of becoming a chrysalis and who fights bitterly<br />
against the immobilisation which he feels as a danger.<br />
Nevertheless if I understand how absurd it is to fear immobilisation, if I<br />
understand that my profound spasm offers me not destruction but only an<br />
apparent death (chrysalis) in order to obtain a life that at last is real<br />
(butterfly), then I perceive that the release of an imaginary film by the<br />
emotive state is not by any means inevitable. Strong in my understanding, in<br />
my Faith, I realise that I am able, and quite easily, to lose myself in my<br />
spasm, that is in my fear, or sadness, or anxiety, without any image fearful or<br />
sad or anxious, without thoughts, or inner movements. At the end of a<br />
moment my sadness ceases to be such in order to become colourless<br />
immobility merely. I am then insensible, anaesthetised, like a piece of timber;<br />
an idiot in one sense, but still very well able to act, to react correctly to the<br />
outer world, like a robot in good working order.<br />
One sees at what paradoxical conclusions our study arrives. Our first<br />
observations condemned the emotive spasm and inspired in us a nostalgia for<br />
the purely fluid emotivity of childhood. But it is impossible to go backwards;<br />
and besides the state of the child was the extreme opposite of that of satori.<br />
We must go ahead. <strong>The</strong> deplorable consequences of our intellectual<br />
development arose only from the fact that our intellect was not enlightened;<br />
as a result of our ignorance we were resisting our inner immobilisation; the<br />
resistance to immobilisation caused our variations of spasm, eddies of<br />
distress; we were wounding ourselves on the bonds which bound us up. But<br />
the remedy is there where we saw the evil; the bonds were only enemies to us<br />
when we resisted them. <strong>The</strong> emotive spasm was only destructive as long as it<br />
continued to be emotive, that is agitated. As soon as I cease to dread<br />
immobility I free myself from the imaginary film, illusorily coercive, which<br />
was born from the spasm; the spasm ceases to be emotive, and it ceases<br />
forthwith to be spasm in order to become merely immobility without<br />
suffering. <strong>The</strong> maturing of satori is then possible.<br />
Our intelligence always ends up with this paradox at the moment at<br />
which thesis and antithesis are resolved in a synthesis. I was possessed first<br />
of all by the unconsidered belief that my emotive state was my very life<br />
(thesis); my considered study brings me to the belief, diametrically opposite,<br />
that my central spasm is my death (antithesis); and then suddenly my<br />
intellectual intuition discovers that my conscious adhesion to my spasmodic<br />
emotive state delivers me from it, that is this adhesion conciliates life and<br />
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