The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
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ON HUMILITY<br />
true well-being is to be found, paradoxically, where until now I have situated<br />
my pain. As long as I have not understood, I am turned towards 'on high';<br />
when I have understood I am not turned towards 'beneath'—for, once again, it<br />
is impossible for me to be turned towards 'beneath' and every effort in that<br />
direction would transform the 'beneath' into an 'on high'—but my aspiration<br />
stretched towards 'on high' decreases in intensity and, in this measure, I<br />
benefit from my humiliations. When I have understood, I resist less and, on<br />
account of that, I see more and more often that I am humiliated; I see that all<br />
my negative states are at bottom humiliations, and that I have taken steps up<br />
to the present to give them other names. I am capable then of feeling myself<br />
humiliated, vexed, without any other image in me than the image of this state,<br />
and of remaining there motionless, my understanding having wiped out my<br />
reflex attempts at flight. From the moment at which I succeed in no longer<br />
moving in my humiliated state, I discover with surprise that there is the<br />
'asylum of rest', the unique harbour of safety, the only place in the world in<br />
which I can find perfect security. My adhesion to this state, placed face to<br />
face with my natural refusal, obtains the intervention of the Conciliating<br />
Principle; the opposites neutralise one another; my suffering fades away and<br />
one part of my fundamental pretension fades away at the same time. I feel<br />
myself nearer to the ground, to the 'beneath', to real humility (humility which<br />
is not acceptance of inferiority, but abandonment of the vertical conception in<br />
which I saw myself always above or below). <strong>The</strong>se inner phenomena are<br />
accompanied by a sentiment of sadness, of 'night'; and this sentiment is very<br />
different from distress because a great calm reigns therein. In this moment of<br />
nightly calm and of relaxation are elaborated the processes of what we have<br />
called the inner alchemy. <strong>The</strong> 'old' man breaks up for the benefit of the<br />
gestation of the 'new' man. <strong>The</strong> individual dies for the sake of the birth of the<br />
universal.<br />
<strong>The</strong> conquest of humility, impossible directly, supposes then the use of<br />
humiliation. All suffering, by humiliating us, modifies us. But this<br />
modification can be of two sorts that are radically opposed. If I struggle<br />
against humiliation, it destroys me and it increases my inner disharmony; if I<br />
let it alone without opposing it, it builds up my inner harmony. To let<br />
humiliation alone simply consists in recognising to oneself that one is<br />
humiliated.<br />
<strong>The</strong> Being, in our actual perspective, appears to us the unconciliated<br />
couple of zero and the infinite. Our nature urges us at first to identify it with<br />
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