The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist

THE EGOTISTICAL STATES
realisation (who loves everything) by seeming to join him to something other
than himself.
Nevertheless the more this man advances in the knowledge of himself,
the more these kinds of love lose value in his eyes and lose their
compensatory effectiveness. This man loses little by little his 'positive',
'altruistic' sentiments. His understanding sees through these clever
counterfeits and leads him back willy-nilly towards the fundamental
egotistical state in which he has always hated that which is not his Self; the
state of 'night' and of solitude. He suffers distress on account of his refusal to
combat the Not-Self (cf. Notes on the Mechanism of Anxiety).
This man, robbed little by little of all possibility of cheating inwardly,
sees himself hounded towards the task of realisation. He will address himself
more and more often to his impartial thought in order to query the legitimacy
of his egotistical claim, of that pretention to be distinct which engenders
solitude and fear. The Ego becomes ever more contracted, more and more
hemmed-in in its last stronghold. There is a limit to this compression, a limit
beyond which the Ego explodes in satori. Then the Ego is diffused
throughout, accomplishing itself and annihilating itself at one and the same
time.
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