The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
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THE MECHANISM OF ANXIETY<br />
with a depressive somatic condition. <strong>The</strong> loss of organic energy without<br />
counterpart (for there is then no exchange with the outside world) tends<br />
evidently in the direction of death; and so the unpleasing images have an<br />
inner taste of death and are perceived as external aggressors tending to kill<br />
me. <strong>The</strong>rein dwells the mirage of which I am the victim. I perceive assassins<br />
coming in my direction, and I am persuaded of their real existence; yet they<br />
do not exist at all, any more than the lake on the horizon of the desert. That is<br />
what Zen calls the 'cave of the phantoms'.<br />
Let us remember that, where anguish is concerned, it is the 'head' which<br />
leads the way, and takes the initiative in the process. Doubtless an organic<br />
depression of physiological origin favours the appearance of anguish (our<br />
humour can be gloomy all day as a result of having slept badly); but, even in<br />
this case the anguish depends on the mind, for if I shift my attention onto<br />
'feeling' I only feel tired and not distressed.<br />
<strong>The</strong> man suffering from anguish has his attention turned towards the<br />
screen of his imaginative film by which he tries to escape from the dangerous<br />
and real Not-Self; and the anguish assails him from behind, coming from the<br />
direction towards which he is not looking, on which he turns his back. <strong>The</strong><br />
inner gesture of which we have spoken above, and by which I shifted my<br />
attention from my 'thinking' onto my 'feeling', is a radical volte-face, of one<br />
hundred and eighty degrees, by which I turn my back on the imaginative<br />
screen and look in the direction from which came the anguish a moment ago;<br />
I say 'came a moment ago' because, during the moment at which this volteface<br />
is accomplished, when the image-making mind which holds the initiative<br />
of the process is annihilated, the anguish ceases and there only remains from<br />
it a certain mental fatigue. <strong>The</strong> spectre only exists illusorily as long as I turn<br />
away my eyes from the place where I suppose it to exist; as soon as I dare to<br />
look at this place I see that there is nothing there.<br />
All this does not lead to an immediate remedy for anguish. One of<br />
man's errors is to search for an immediate remedy for his anguish, for this<br />
symptom, without bothering about the cause of the symptom. Nevertheless<br />
the theoretical understanding of the mechanism of anguish is useful for the<br />
intemporal realisation which alone can save man from his illusory sufferings.<br />
I am not able to consecrate myself to the task of realisation if I have not first<br />
perfectly understood the character, equally illusory, of the two affective poles<br />
'pleasure-pain'.<br />
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