The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
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SENSATION AND SENTIMENT<br />
death, movement and fixity, spasm and suppleness. <strong>The</strong> paradox is only<br />
apparent, on the formal plane; behind this appearance there is the conciliation<br />
of the contraries.<br />
Our comparison between emotivity and a muscle allows us to make<br />
clear what new kind of relaxation we obtain in ceasing to struggle against the<br />
immobilisation of the spasm; and this comparison, as we shall see, serves us<br />
thus at the moment at which it is no longer applicable. When my muscle goes<br />
into a spasm it is shortened; when it is decontracted it recovers its length and<br />
is ready for a new shortening spasm. When I do not correct inner work it<br />
inevitably happens that my central spasm decreases; this eventuality, as with<br />
the muscle, then throws me back into a relaxation ready for a new spasm. Up<br />
to this point our comparison is applicable, but when I adhere consciously to<br />
my spasm, what takes place in me is analogous to a phenomenon that is never<br />
seen in physiology: a muscle which is relaxed without becoming longer,<br />
which could decontract without recovering its original length, and then be at<br />
once shortened and supple. Let us suppose that a failure puts me into a spasm<br />
of humiliation; if I take no correct inner action my humiliation will pass more<br />
or less rapidly and sooner or later I will come out of this state; I shall be no<br />
longer humiliated, but then I shall have come back to my habitual pretention<br />
and in consequence open to an eventual new humiliation. If, on the contrary,<br />
in my state of humiliation, I consciously adhere to my spasm, my humiliation<br />
disappears without my pretention reappearing; my central 'muscle' (as<br />
opposed to what can be seen in the case of my material muscles) decontracts<br />
without losing its shortening; my humiliation is transformed into humility.<br />
<strong>The</strong> comparison with the muscle (with its states of expansion and of<br />
diminution) is a good one. When a success exalts me I feel myself to be<br />
aggrandised, increased tenfold in volume; physically even, I feel my chest fill<br />
out, my nostrils open, I use large gestures. When, on the contrary, a repulse<br />
humiliates me I feel myself small, shriveled, reduced, I have a weight on my<br />
chest, my gestures are curtailed. <strong>The</strong> inner action of which we are speaking<br />
consists in shutting ourselves up willingly in this reduced volume. <strong>The</strong>re is<br />
then produced a sort of condensation of the Ego; the Ego is at once denied in<br />
its volume and affirmed in its density. This process is comparable with that<br />
which transforms coal into diamonds; the aim of this process is not the<br />
destruction of the Ego but its transformation, its sublimation. <strong>The</strong> conscious<br />
acceptance results in the coal which has become denser, and so blacker and<br />
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