The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
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SENSATION AND SENTIMENT<br />
more opaque, being instanta<strong>neo</strong>usly transformed into a diamond that is<br />
perfectly transparent.<br />
It is evident that we cannot really accomplish this inner gesture of<br />
complete adhesion to our shortening spasm the moment we try. For all our<br />
previous automatisms push us towards gestures that are radically opposed to<br />
this one. <strong>The</strong> inner work consists in making with perseverance partial<br />
performances of the useful gesture; that already brings me a certain calm<br />
which progressively increases; I thus move in the direction of the absolute<br />
calm which may permit one day the release of satori.<br />
I learn to feel directly in myself my spasm, my uneasiness, under the<br />
imaginative film which more or less masks my centre; the acquisition of this<br />
new inner sensation conditions all the rest of the work. <strong>The</strong>n my attention<br />
brusquely abandons my film in order to focus, and remain motionless, on this<br />
profound uneasiness which I have felt in its purity. I install myself in this<br />
uneasiness from which I have always fled till then (the only place where this<br />
lion ceases to be dangerous is in his very jaws); at least I make a very sincere<br />
effort to install myself there but, as we have understood, in the degree in<br />
which my effort succeeds my discomfort disappears and it is in my centre<br />
(where my illusory distress seems to have its seat) that I find myself. For a<br />
long time my success being only partial my attention does not reach my<br />
centre with stability; it only reaches it for a moment that is without duration.<br />
<strong>The</strong> disappearance of my discomfort removes every object from the field of<br />
my attention and this attention finds itself again seized by images; then<br />
everything begins once more. Our spirit of investigation has to be<br />
persevering.<br />
This work implies the correct 'despair' from which Hope is born. Until<br />
now I was hoping that the convulsions of my imaginary film would one day<br />
wipe out my spasm; when I had a worry I carried out the forced labour of<br />
sterile ruminations (because, implicitly, I believed them to be useful); I was<br />
in the jail in which my absurd confidence in my imagination shut me up.<br />
Now I have seen imagination for what it is, a sterile camouflage; the hope<br />
which I placed in its activity is transformed into Hope placed in its nonactivity;<br />
the door of my prison opens. I have at last the right to suffer without<br />
ruminating, that is to say without perpetuating my suffering; I have at last the<br />
right to profit by the essential instability of my suffering, to allow myself to<br />
be relieved by the Principle without doing anything. In exempting myself<br />
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