The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
The Supreme Doctrine - neo-alchemist
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ON HUMILITY<br />
my objectivity has triumphed over my subjectivity, when the reality has<br />
triumphed in me over the dream.<br />
In our desire to escape from distress at last, we search for doctrines of<br />
salvation, we search for 'gurus'. But the true guru is not far away, he is<br />
before our eyes and unceasingly offers us his teaching; he is reality as it is,<br />
he is our daily life. <strong>The</strong> evidence of salvation is beneath our eyes, evidence of<br />
our non-omnipotence, that our pretension is radically absurd, impossible, and<br />
so illusory, inexistent; evidence that there is nothing to fear for hopes that<br />
have no reality; that I am and have always been on the ground, so that no<br />
kind of fall is possible, so that no vertigo has any reason to exist.<br />
If I am humiliated, it is because my imaginative autonomisms succeed<br />
in neutralising the vision of reality and keep the evidence in the dark. I do not<br />
benefit by the salutary teaching which is constantly offered to me, because I<br />
refuse it and set myself skillfully to elude the experience of humiliation. If a<br />
humiliating circumstance turns up, offering me a marvellous chance of<br />
initiation, at once my imagination strives to conjure what appears to me to be<br />
a danger; it struggles against the illusory movement towards 'beneath'; it does<br />
everything to restore me to that habitual state of satisfied arrogance in which<br />
I find a transitory respite but also the certainty of further distress. In short I<br />
constantly defend myself against that which offers to save me; I fight foot by<br />
foot to defend the very source of my unhappiness. All my inner actions tend<br />
to prevent satori, since they aim at the 'on high' whereas satori awaits me<br />
'beneath'. And so Zen is right in saying that 'satori falls upon us unexpectedly<br />
when we have exhausted all the resources of our being'.<br />
<strong>The</strong>se considerations seem to indicate humility to us as the 'way'. It is<br />
true in a sense. Let us see, however, in what respect humility is not a 'way' if<br />
by this word we understand a systematic discipline. In my actual condition I<br />
cannot make any effort which, directly or indirectly, is not an effort towards<br />
'on high'. Every effort to conquer humility can only result in a false humility<br />
in which I again exalt myself egotistically by means of the idol that I have<br />
created for myself. It is strictly impossible for me to abase myself, that is for<br />
me to reduce the intensity of my claim to 'be'. All that I can and should do, if I<br />
wish to escape definitively from distress, is less and less to resist the<br />
instruction of concrete reality, and to let myself be abased by the evidence of<br />
the cosmic order. Even then, there is nothing that I can do or cease to do<br />
directly. I will cease to oppose myself to the constructive and harmonising<br />
benefits of humiliation in the measure in which I have understood that my<br />
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